Replies to 'How Childhood Abuse Still Affects Me'

I don't think really that anyone truly gets over childhood abuse. we learn I guess to the best of all of our ablity to go on and make the most of our lives that we can. For me even at my age of 46 my mind still goes back to the memorys and the extreme pain of the abuse that started for me when I was only one years old and on and on and on.

I have DID was called MPD same disorder diff label. i struggle with this disorder every day, some days are better then others but mental illness I feel keeps us in many ways locked in the pain of what happen to us at least for me it so seems this way.   I have always wished that Dr Phil would do shows on DID and other mental disorders. I even send him an e mail at the beginning of his show asking about it but it wasnt responded to I know they cant respond to all.  i let it go.

I would so like to see him do more on these topics there importent many suffer from them and not everyone can get professional help for there illness. I have insurance ( medicaid) I am on disablity. but in colorado where I live you are told where you can go for help thru medicaid and where i have to go they said they dont deal with this illness. so i see someone for medication that i take off and on as i just dont like them much. but outside of that i have no help. i had help when i lived on East Coast but that was over 8 years ago. my partner is a great supporter he is soooooo good with all of my I love him so. but still its hard. I respect Dr Phil would like to hear how he feels ones with mental illness can actually move on and get rid of the pain if that is possible.  I am a mother of three grown sons that i am very close to but i know they never really understood this illness that eats away at me i somehow with friends and good support raised them the best I could but this disorder and my abuse effected them and probably still does to some degree. i try hiding this illness from my grandaughter as i never really gotten away from the shame of this and dont want her to ever fear me the way society has. thanks for listening. bjshawn.