Quote From: deb4268Hi everyone! I'm new to the boards. I figured this was probably one of the best places to talk to people who are either trying or who have quit smoking. I have been smoking for 20 years. I started when I was about 17. I have tried to quit a couple of times, but it never seems to work. I now find that I have to quit now, and it's harder than ever. It's for my own well-being, but I don't understand why I can't just quit. It's like I'm fighting myself here. I guess I just need to talk to people who understand where I am coming from.
I'm so glad you joined us..I too started smoking when I was 17, I was off and on for years, then started smoking steadily at 28 or so..smoked until I was 57..when I quit last February I really thought I had it made..even though the first three weeks WERE HORRIBLE, after that, I really started liking it, my self esteem was higher, but then I started gaining weight, arguing with hubby and on the 4th month anniversary I went to the 7/11 and bought a pack..it's been a month and a half now and I'm slowly starting to hate myself again..not to mention the disappointment in my Granddaughter's eyes when she saw me smoking again..I had tried to slip around and hide it..but then I didn't want to be lying to her..I know what you mean about not being able to stop, but it is an addiction and addictions don't care much about common sense..they just thrive off of our weakness..hang in there..we're here for you..Ann
