Quote From: mjkkasIs your therapist not helpful, or are you afraid to "go there"? I have had good and lots of bad therapists. Yes I have been diagnosed with the same as you, and I am much better at helping others than myself most times. I am so sorry to hear of the horrible things you had to go through, sigh. I wish that there could be some magic pill for all of us to take and make it all better, but there isn't. We are left having to take care of ourselves having never learned how, or feeling we were worth it. I would just try real hard to not avoid your issues in therapy and change therapists if needed. You are worth it and you deserve it! I don't know that I helped you but I do care.
mj
just started with this new therapist so i have to give him a chance he is trying to teach me mindfulness but most days i can't concentrate long enough to do it for more than just a few minutes. To make matters worse I have periods of time when I emotionally disappear (dissociative disorder) and I cut myself up, I never remember anything, and only know that I'm hurt because of the blood. I am afraid one day I won't wake up. The conscience part of me has no desire for suicide or hurting myself, but it seams that the conscience part of me does and when I get overly stressed, it seems to take over. I really could use a friend,I have only allowed myself to have one. I have been so controlled all of my life that I was never able to have any before. If anyone out there would like to talk my E-mail address is sfeazell1769@aol.com.
Thank you mj here's to us survivors.
