Yes some of the things you said is what i'm confused. Like why my parents had to sexually and physically abuse me? Was i that bad of a kid? I thought they were to protect me but ended up hurting me plus a child out of this mess. don't get me wrong when i just said that cause I love jayke with all my heart he my precious boy. but i hate that l word and the sorry word they dont exist to me. i guess i'm just a messed up adult or teen or whatever you want to call me. i just started with my therapist so i need to trust her completely before i open uo to her. at least i know you know what i mean
makayla