Replies to 'Anorexia'

Quote From: cally836

Hi my name is Maria and I have anorexia nervosa since I was 5 well when I was 5 I was diagnosed  with eating disorder specifically anorexia couple year later.So I been anorexic for all my life is all I know is all I'm or I fell I'm I"m 5'2" and when I was 18 years old I weight 60 lb or less the only reason I'm still fighting is because 7 years go God taught was funny to challenge my life some more by give me the gift of a child a beautiful girl she is the only reason why I didn't let my self completely go but is hard is so hard I want to be strong so I can be a good rule model for my girl and for be there for her but is to hard yes I'm managing to not go to ow with my weight but is watch going on inside me the heart the most anorexia is kill me from inside out is not about the number in the scale is about the Hell that  is inside me that I have to deal every day off my life that hart so bad will love to love my self to feel worked good enough but that is not the case.I will give anything o just one day to fell Like I belong ,good enough ,to love my self to fell proud off my self just for one day be anorexia I just want a fighting chance to give sense off my life to do something with it  anorexia keep my soul inside her prison and keep me from do anything with my life I feel like passenger in my own life I set there watching my life go by paralyze from doing anything with it is hell and all I wants To Break free to finally live my life.Doctor tell me that anorexia is my daises but I'm not anorexia well I will like to discover that one day  and hop-ply will not be to late.