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April 21, 2008, 7:49 am PDT
I understand
Quote From: bklynmomI am always yelling at my 2 children and I would really like to stop, I just don't know how.I am very frustrated with so many different aspects of our lives and I am working on improving our situation but, in the meantime my yelling is pushing my 12 year old away from me and making my 2 year old very agressive and defiant.Unfortunately for me, I don't have a real support system so, everything is always on me.I'm 32 years old and I feel so worn out.There are days when I just want to cry but, I think that once I start crying I won't be able to stop.I hardly ever have time for myself and any extra money (after paying bills) is always spent on the children, so I don't get to do anything nice for myself.There is no such thing as a social life for me.I've been single now for 2 years.All of these things coupled with so many others have me totally stressed and frustrated. i completely understand your situation. I have been a single parent since i was 6 months pregnant. My son is now 2 1/2 years old. It is very difficult to get ahead. No matter how hard you try, there is always something that comes up whether it be a sickness, an unexpected bill payment. And I understand what you mean when all your money is spent on your kids. I buy some mascara and i feel guilty that i have spent the money. Being a single parent is VERY stressful. Everything is dependant on you. You have to be the disciplinarian and the friend. I have no social life, and havent had one since my son was born. I'm lucky if i can find a sitter. I too have been single for almost 3 years because there is no money for me to go out and meet people. Can't join a club, because of a)finances, and b)lack of sitters. Can't go out to a bar, or a movie or etc etc becuase of finances and babysitting. So i completely feel the stress you are in. However, i have also dealt with the anger issue as well. My anger was soooo bad that i went to my family physician for it. For me it was a combonation of a couple issues. I was dealing with post partum, some depression because of my situation and my hormone leves were completly out of wack. With some blood work and some meds, I no longer scream like a mad women. Perhaps something like my situation is going on with you. Dont fret though. I try to keep positive. I just tell myself that perhaps at this moment i am just meant to be at home and be a mom. I am 27 years old, im not bound to be single for the rest of my life.
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