Pam, I lost my son, Brandon, to suicide on July 5 2005. He was 21 yrs. old. My life feel like it ended on that day, if not for my other son, I would not have chose to stay alive.
The 2nd yr. was actually the most difficult to live through for me. I think the first yr. I spent in shock. The 2nd yr was so bad that I had times when I forgot that he was dead, and had to remember it all over again.
Thank the Lord for my wonderful therapist.
I am just now starting to feel like I am getting a resemblence of a life back together.I too, had to quit my job, as I think someone else mentioned.
The thing that made it more difficult was that so often people have their own judgements about suicide. I did not get any support after he was gone. My own church deserted me.