Replies to 'Childhood Sexual Abuse Support'

I was watching the show about the granfather that molested his grandson and his daughter as well. It was both disturbing and sad. I have always felt that I too was molested as a child. I feel that I have blocked that part out of my head. Its strange because my older sister feels the same way. One day we were talking and I told her how I felt and she says that she too feels that she was molested. We dont know who did this and I know deep in my heart that I have. I dont trust men, my relationships fail. I can remember that I was at least 3 or 4 year old and my mother caught me in the closet humping on a teddy bear. I did that often because of some pleasure that I felt. I can also remember experimenting with a cousin when I was younger. Im afraid to ask my parents in fear of finding out what really happened to my sister and myself.

I recently started dating a man. He is sweet, funny and I really like him alot. He spoke to me about fetishes that to me were not normal. He enjoys pain. He wanted me to smack him, kick his privates. The more I knew about what he liked. The more I knew it wasnt normal so I asked him is he was molested as a child. He told me no but deep inside I knew he was. We were at my place watching tv and having some drinks and he admitted to being molested by his brother and two cousins when he was 4 yrs old. It scared me because thats how I felt about what happened to me. I want to be there for him but im afraid. Would he become a molestor? Is it healthy for his to enjoy pain? I want to be with him but im not the type to hurt a person in any way but I dont want to push him away. I need some advice about me and about the person im dating. Confused in the bronx