Yes we have considered it, but we have no medical insurance and the places that I have called in our home town have waiting list that are very long. I have prayed daily and at least I do have him talking to me now. When I put an application in for an apartment, I guess he figured out that he was fixing to lose me, neither one of us want to give up, (at least that's what he told me) I do know that our marriage didn't get this way over night, so I figure it won't be fixed over night. It's very hard for me, when it comes to the physical contact, I'm scared to even hug my own husband much less anything else. He says that he wants our marriage to get better also, he would like for us to go out and do things, I'm all for that, but when it comes right down to getting him out the door, there is always some reason why we can't go that night, etc... Then when we do try to talk about things, he has a very different point of view. If he thinks he is right about something there is no changing his mind, so most talks get us no where fast. Either I just agree so he won't get mad at me, or if I don't agree and stand my ground then he says I never understand him, even after all these years and that hurts him, but sometimes he is very harsh in his judgments and he can get very loud and worked up if I try to have a simple conversation. He is supposed to be on medication for his mental problems, but he has stopped taking it and I can't convince him that he really needs to be back on it.
