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May 20, 2008, 11:36 am PDT
what is wrong with me
Quote From: noel71 I really appreciate all this advice!!!! I don't know why i have put up with all this for so long. After reading these posts it has made me feel stronger. ( I hope ) actually i know i can do this. I just applied to drive a school bus, cross your fingers for me. I cant even look at the big jerk!!!and i now know he is the one who's losing everything, not me, hes the stupid one. I don't even know why i have been wasting my time for the last 2 1/2 years what a waste. Its funny,well actually not funny, he has been trying to tell me that his friend ha ha used his phone to text the girl that works at the gym,before i would have tried to believe him but not any more, like i said I'm not the stupid one anymore, he is ,he has no clue what he has lost yet its karma. I never thought about him having a sickness but he is sick so sick. I will pull myself out of all this and i wont let him drag me down any further.You are so right, i don't need to depend on him anymore and my kids need me to set a good example for them. My oldest daughter has asked me many times to get rid of him she cant stand him and i need to show her how strong her mom can be and will be.I can do this and will!!! i am going to tell him what i think of him. I'm sure he doesn't care obviously but it will feel good. I'm still struggling with my emotions why do i have such a hard damn time trying to get the courage to tell him off. I know he is being a serial cheater why cant i find the courage to move on? what the hell is wrong with me? why don't i hate his guts? why im i trying to hang on? i did apply for the bus driving job hopefully that will work out. i know getting far away from him would be the best thing for me and my kids. why cant i just let go and realize he doesn't love me he only loves himself. hes an ass hes conceited,immature, and he sucks at being a father what the hell im i waiting for? How do you move on? why cant he just be flipping normal? ugh i wish i could be brainwashed into hating him. i guess i need some help.What has other people done to get over the love of your life? how long does it take? i know it will bother me when he brings 20 year olds around my girls especially because i know they will be perfect . why do i even care? please tell me what comes around goes around and karma will get him!!!
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