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October 20, 2005, 9:26 pm PDT
Fears and Phobias
Quote From: shopemsI have had anxiety /depression etc... for many years. I have been on and off all different kinds of medication. I am going through another bout of not feeling well.  
 
When I start feeling bad I get real scared. Real scared. I have always had a fear of death. I am so scared that I won't make it this time. It seems that every bout of anxiety and panic I have I seem to get more and more forgetfull. I am only 36 years old but I feel like my brain has shut off. I am so forgetfull to the point that I have to think for a second or two before I can say the names of my pets. It really scares me that I have become so forgetful. Is that normal for anxiety and depression? I used to wake up in the morning and I would have a list in my head of what all I had to do for the day. My brain was like my computer but now it's almost like it is a blank slate. I have to write so much down or I will forget.  
 
Please any help or advise would be greatly appreciated. 
 
  i know how you feel i feel the same way as you i went to the doctor over and over thinking there was something wrong with me he gave me some drugs to take but i never did take them cause i couldnt see how they would help because it was my brain telling me that there was something wrong with me (im not telling you to stop taking your medication), but then i was even to scared to leave my house and then even my bedroom and then one day i had enough of being in my bedroom so i got up and wanted to do something about it so everyday i would leave the house yeah i would feel anxious but what i would do is distract my brain from thinking about those anxious thoughts like thinking i was goin to die or have a panic attack i would play loud music and sing along to it and i would try really hard to only think about the words in the songs and i found the more i done this the further i would get in my travels i went from laying in bed all day everyday to going up the local pub and having drinks with my mates in less than 2 weeks i found that the more i would think about dying the worse it would get so all i did was distract my brain from thinking those thoughts even at home i just find something to do around the house that keeps my brain busy i stopped talking about it to other ppl cause when i did it would then come back into my head im telling you this cause it really did help me just try and stop thinking about i no its hard to deal with ive been there but doing these things really helped me i just stopped thinking bout it all together cause when ya stop thinking bout it ya feel fine there is nothing wrong with you and you will not die its only sensations in the brain the less you think about the better you'll feel it is hard but it does help do something you really enjoy doing if its taking photos to doing crosswords or puzzles just stop talking bout it other and thinking about it
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