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June 10, 2008, 8:10 am PDT
It's amazing how much resistance the basics cause
Quote From: ritehereI use that term- meditation- loosely as I don't usually do it the way it is taught by eastern standards. (You know, sitting cross-legged chanting "OHM") I find myself drawn more to the practice of mindfulness, when an activity becomes rote and repetitious you begin to focus on the movement or sensation. For me it's a gateway to deeper levels of myself.
I bought a bicycle at a garage sale yesterday, and am experiencing resistance to riding it, which surprised me. I will let you know more about it later. For now I'm digging deep in my memories for all of those times in my childhood when my bike was a source of exhileration and freedom. Linda, I know exactly what you mean -- I'm still experiencing a lot of resistance about working part-time. I don't want to give up my free time. It's more about me learning to work thru my feelings and thoughts as I continue to work. Like I walked out of work last week with no work and felt scared. WHAT IF he doesn't have anything else for me to do ... then my sister ended up in the hospital Friday night. I saw her Saturday night and then spent the day at Akron City Hospital - about an hour away waiting for her cauterization to be completed. She's doing fine - it's a direct result of her uncontrolled diabetes. Only she can do something and if she chooses not to, I have to allow it. (don't want to -- but I will allow it)
Anyway, I want to get a bike as well -- I figure I'll ride it in my back yard so if I fall, I can fall on the ground and not on a sidewalk or street. You got to keep us posted on how you do.
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