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June 11, 2008, 5:07 pm PDT

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I have been going through alot since I was a child. I use to go to therapy when I was a kid when my parents got divorced. Something happend back then and I really don't want to go back to another therapist.  Last week while I was a work, I was very depressed. I usually can hide it while at work, but I have to say thanks to those wonderful monthly visits (pms),  really made it hard for me to hide this time. There are a few people I work with I get along great. Of course there are a couple that I can not stand, but I know I have to do my job so I can pay my bills. I ususally don't let people at work get to me, but this past week I just couldn't let it go. No I did not do anything stupid, but I did break down in tears cause I was getting pissed. Of course the boss called me in the office, and I told her that I don't like being the one being blammed for something cause "she" didn't want to do it. So when the job wasn't done right away, it was blammed on me. Right then and there I really wanted to turn around and just punch the witch! But I held it in, cause I knew I wasn't losing my job cause of her. I did tell my boss a little of what is going on, didn't get into full details. I really don't feel comfortable openning up to my friends even with all that is built up inside. I know if I go to like my family dr. he will want to put me on those depression drugs. I really don't want to do that either cause, I heard alot of people get addicted to them.  I do wish sometimes I could crawl up into a ball and die, but then I tell myself it isn't worth dying that way. My boss even gave me her phone number to call, if I ever need to talk. But I know she isn't one I can really talk to. I really don't know who I can talk to anymore. Yes I am affraid, not sure of what but I feel scared.
Maybe you just need to vent so vent away.

Do a check list to see if anything in lifestyle could be tweaked for a more user friendly mind/body connection. Getting enough rest, fluids, balanced meals. Keeping a healthy routine and habits.

Even thought diet can need us to change dial from everything that is or has gone wrong to everything that has or could go right. Not only do I have to watch bingeing on Dove ice cream mini bit size ice cream. I have to watch bingeing running reels of less than perfect times in my life to validate my pain. Sure allow ourself to grieve yet try to get a handle so your grief doesn't control you. Sort of like Serenity Prayer:

God grant me the serenity to accept
The things I cannot change
Courage to change
the things I can change
and Wisdom
To know the difference

Panic, anxiety, and depression have been linked to shallow breathing so a physical is always a good idea with complete blood work including thyroid and hormone level test. Something physical can cause low oxygen levels as can not enough doctor approved exercise... like walks even just to corner and back.

You are wise to recognize that more than anything different at work your PMS was magnifying. Some people just take Paxil during PMS. I don't know if still done or a good idea so you'd have to research. Its for those whose hormones take them for an emotional roller coaster ride via PMS.

So sit down with pen and pad and see if anything you can do to tweak your life. Get a good physical with complete blood work and vent and chat with us while you decide what is in your best interest. Up to you. Life isn't cured it is managed.

So grab ahold of steering wheel of your life like you wouldn't just sit in a car moving down road and see what happens or where ends up.

Definitely, not punching out co-workers IS in your best interest.

Do realize that stewing over past or things you cannot change in present reflects on expressions on your face and compounds stress of anything stressful in present happening or that occurs.

So, just like hitting ten with someone might have to do with 8 parts of that resulting from a thought diet from stewing over collective perceived infractions from repertoire of when life is or was less than perfect. We all have our own personal repertoires of painful life stories. Even Dr. Phil and Robin have sad things that have happened to them.

Share whatever you feel comfortable sharing. Most of us here have vented... Including me. Most of us are just winging it on a wing and a prayer.

DR PHIL QUOTE: You're the one who talks to you all day every day. Characterize messages you send yourself by a rational and productive optimism.

You can Google: Depression Self Help Tips

Also, note above where you see "Click here for" in red "General and Mental Health Resources." Nice to meet you.

SEA


 


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