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June 13, 2008, 8:44 am PDT
happens all the time ...
Quote From: ritehereI have to emphasize what I was highlighting with that post though.
What I wanted to point out to others was the weird physical reaction I had just before all the negative thoughts started up and my mood changed.
For the first time I recognized that this happens everytime my mind is about to start up "tapes." I was wondering if anybody else has something like this happen to them? I find it valuable to know so that in the future I can examine my thoughts and reactions even faster. I'm working toward the day when I will be completely spontaneous and not miss a beat. Able to give and take with people and not worry about if I misinterpreted them, or how I appeared to them- all those things that used to cause me agony afterwards. It;s what Tolle and Martha Beck named the WATCHER cause that's what it's like .. you feel like you're watching a TV show or something. I find that sometimes I'm right in the middle of an event, situation or person .. and suddenly I'm not participating anymore. I figure that it's just me finally moving out of denial and remote control to being "present". This is why I loved reading A NEW EARTH .. he described exactly what I was feeling. And Martha, she gave me a couple of exercises in THE FOUR-DAY WIN where I practiced having my WATCHER watching.
Don't you think it's a marvelous experience? I do, I'm able to hear what I'm saying .. still doing it on autopilot; however, the next time, I'm able to bring up my truths and it disappears over time.
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