Quote From: glenn6187 Thank you for the replies about my daughter.I havent been on here lately,really busy.I saw my daughter tonight and we had such a good time.I sent her flowers,and she thought it was the most greatest thing.I brought up chinese food and it was just her and myself.Mom needed a night off and she goes saturdays.We see here every single night and every time i see her,i wanna cry.shes doing alot better,butshe still needs help.I really feel bad cause i know exactly what shes going through cause ive been there and done that.Im trying to get her to tell me who did that stuff to her,but she aint telling.I feel so helpless cause i wasnt there to protect her and help her and it kills me.My past life dosent help either.The other night,my wife almost caught me crying outside.Mybrothers birthday is comming up and i hope i can deal with it without letting it get to me.I alos really feel like crap cause they asked me if i ever were depressed and i told them that i have P.T.S.D.They really didnt ask why,they just told me that i could of giving my daughter a gene in her that makes her depressed and it could be herditary.They asked me if i see a therapist and i kinda got angry cause its not about me,its about my daughter.Im an adult,i know that i made some really bad choices in the past,but i faced my problems and i deal with it.yes,i do get depressed sometimes,but i handle it the right way now,not go off the wall,and nut out.I realize that what my brother did to me ,i cannot turn back time,I know hes dead forever and i do still try to deal with that he did did kill himself and i do feel guilty,but i regroup my thoughts and deal with it.
What i do try to figure out is that my brother has always been in my life dead or alive.He cost me over thirty years of my life ,now he caused my kids now that all comes back to what he did to me and that sucks.My daughter is only 13.It took her over 2 mothes to come out with what happened to her.It took me over 30 years and im just glad that she did.She doesnt deserve what shes going through cause of some weirdo.All my daughter wants is my wife and myself.I painted her finger nails and toes not too long ago and when i went home,i cried.I cried cause ive been doing her nails since shes been 2 years old and it kills me thats shes there.Im getting to the point where im going to pull her out of there,but #1,i cant and #2 she needs the help.She will be going to a place called sagamore,its a place where they do exstensive therapy and we cant see her for 2 weeks..why should she be going through this,its so not fair.All i want is for her to be home,thats all i want.THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME.
GLENN
I've been thinking about your daughter a lot. Wondering how she is doing.I'm sure there is nothing she would like more than to be home with mom and dad! Please don't be so hard on yourself! When SHE is ready she will talk! Be glad she has opened up as much as she has.
So what if it took you thirty years? There was a very good reason for that! Your family sounds a lot like mine! They would rather live in DENIAL than face the truth! I tried to do the right thing and tell my mother right after it happened to me! I was eight ! I told her about how the neighbor gave me a kiss and before I could say the next word she was dragging me into the bathroom! She filled the tub with hot water and started scrubbing the dirt off me! All the while yelling at me that I should have known to stay away from that "dirty old man"! Trust me when I say if I had it to do over again I would have waited thirty years to tell too!!!
There's one thing your daughter has that YOU and I didn't have. A parent that has gone through it! A parent that can relate to her on her level. YOU ARE A GOOD FATHER! Just let her know that when she is ready to talk YOU are ready to listen! You both are still in my prayers!
