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Just read it. I see my first post has horrible typos. Something is wrong with my laptop. It destroys the characters! Well anyway, as I mentioned I am referring to the sexual part of it.  You are free to disagree with me, but as a Christian, I believe also in the spiritual part of marriage. The Bible teaches that one of the reasons to not have multiple sex partners is because you pick up demonic spirits this way. And you can also transfer those spirits. Long before I knew my husband was cheating, I started feeling funny in my mind and my sleep. I used to have wild porno dreams and flashes. Id dream that I was floating above my bed or next to it and watching pornos. I would feel a sense of withdrawal when Id wake up. Like I was longing for it. I would feel moody and NOT at all like myself. I was so scared. It was like I could feel evil spirits. They were crawling on my body and trying to enter my mind. It got worse. I havent said a cuss word since HIGH school. I suddenly started to think about cuss words all the time. This would be my response to the news or whatever. Then one day, Listening to the news radio, my response to the story was F*&&% That S&**&T! Oh my God! I pulled over and I began to pray. During the Counseling my husband mentioned that he noticed something about me that scared him. He said that I would seem possessed or something, like I was just gonna snap one day and wed all be on the news. (I am calm and fun and like to calmly discuss things like adults personality). I knew what he was talk about! I just did not feel right. Not at all like myself. He was thinking I KNEW. But at that time I did not know. I suspected that something he picked up out in the streets, clubs, workplace or where ever, - he brought it home. Sometimes spouses dont realize that when they go outside and they begin to see changes that they hate in their spouse and their spouse can explain it, they may have very well deposited something into that person that only some prayer and deliverance, perhaps some counseling and spiritual connection to EACH OTHER can heal.

Anyway. Bottom line for me is, I told my husband that through it all (I was molested when I was 3) almost raped in college (HIS HAND SLIPPED OFF MY MOUTH AND THE SCREAMS MADE HIM GET UP SO I DID NOT GET HURT too badly) and cheated on by him (a cheating boyfriend for me is different that a cheating spouse FOR ME). This cheating is the worse of the three. As a Christian I believe that suicides to not get to go to heaven. If it were not for this, I would just kill myself. I dont want to live anymore and I am losing my mind at this point. It has only gotten worse. Partly because I know that death will not make it stop, if I commit the act against myself. So I must deal with the horror each day. I went to the hospital. A girl who was molested and never recovered was there as was a young lady who had been raped. We all ended up ion the same place. The only difference for me is there is justice to be handed down for the crime against them. Where is the justice for me? What do you do to a person who willfully engages in a sexual act and walks away not caring if you border on the brink of insanity? Where is the law for me?

Thanks for listening. Believe it or not I am trying to sue him and the girlfriend for intentional infliction of distress. I might not win, but if I do I hope to have it used as a precedent possibly. Its not fair that they get off free and clear.