Replies to 'Bipolar Disorder'

I just posted a repley to "Moons Bay" before this one.  I quit often do things backwards.  I asume it's the Bi-polar.  The posting "Moons Bay" made me suddenly want to speek.  I want to live, but there is a pull to die.  I never looked at it that way.  I have been reading this board for about 2 years. I have never resonded, although I wanted to.  I have been Bi-polar since about the age of 12.  At that time they did't know there was such a thing as Bi-polar I, never mind a Bi-polar II.  I am now 57.   Growing up I knew that there was somthing wrong, but I didn't know what. I went undiagnosed untill I was about 35.   Even at the age of 35 they didn't know that there was two Bi-polars.  I have run the gamit with doctors and meds.  I'm doing alright now though.  I struggled with my secret for many years.  My aunt had schizophrenia, and I saw only too well how you were treated with a mentall illness.  Most of my family don't understand and have been very cruel.  The sorry truth is that it hasen't changed that much.  The cruel stigma is still out there. I have a 36 year old son who hates me because I gave it to him. He doesn't speek to me.  As far as he is concerned I should not have been aloud to have children. So I mostly keep to myself.  Maybe here I won't be so lonley.

Froglegs 1

I just posted a repley to "Moons Bay" before this one.  I quit often do things backwards.  I asume it's the Bi-polar.  The posting "Moons Bay" made me suddenly want to speek.  I want to live, but there is a pull to die.  I never looked at it that way.  I have been reading this board for about 2 years. I have never resonded, although I wanted to.  I have been Bi-polar since about the age of 12.  At that time they did't know there was such a thing as Bi-polar I, never mind a Bi-polar II.  I am now 57.   Growing up I knew that there was somthing wrong, but I didn't know what. I went undiagnosed untill I was about 35.   Even at the age of 35 they didn't know that there was two Bi-polars.  I have run the gamit with doctors and meds.  I'm doing alright now though.  I struggled with my secret for many years.  My aunt had schizophrenia, and I saw only too well how you were treated with a mentall illness.  Most of my family don't understand and have been very cruel.  The sorry truth is that it hasen't changed that much.  The cruel stigma is still out there. I have a 36 year old son who hates me because I gave it to him. He doesn't speek to me.  As far as he is concerned I should not have been aloud to have children. So I mostly keep to myself.  Maybe here I won't be so lonley.

Froglegs 1