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I haven't been here for such a long time that I am almost uncomfortable saying anything.  I just recently got out of the hospital for cutting and it has been such a journey.  I'm not sure what to say so maybe I will try to expess how I feel with a poem.

I FEEL TRAPPED IN MY MIND

WITH NO WHERE TO GO

SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING MOVES SO FAST

AND I MOVE SO SLOW

MY HANDS SHAKE

AS I LOOK FOR A PLACE TO GO

WHERE I WILL END UP

NO ONE KNOWS

FILLED WITH ANXIETY

SADDNESS, STRESS, AND FEAR

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM AT

AND NO ONE KNOWS THAT I AM HERE

I SEARCH FOR ANSWERS

THAT CAN'T SEEM TO BE FOUND

I AM ALONE AND HELPLESS

WITH NO ONE AROUND

I AM CRYING OUT TO ANYONE

I WISH SOMEONE COULD READ MY MIND

BUT THAT IS JUST NOT POSSIBLE

MY SOUL I CAN'T EVEN FIND

I AM SO MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE

FROM MINUTE TO MINUTE

FROM DAY TO NIGHT

THIS DISORDER IS SUCH A STRUGGLE

SUCH AN EVERYDAY FIGHT

MY MIND IS TIRED

MY BODY IS WEAK

I AM A HOT AIR BALOON

THAT HAS A HOT AIR LEAK

I AM SLIPPING AWAY SOFTLY

NO ONE KNOWS HOW TO GET ME BACK

I AM SCARED AND FRIGHTENED

KNOWING IT IS STRENGTH THAT I LACK

IF YOU FEEL THE SAME

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

I AM THERE WITH YOU

FROM THE FLESH TO THE BONE

I LEAVE THESE WORDS

AS A GUIDE TO MY HEART

DON'T KNOW WHY I AM ENDING THIS

DON'T KNOW WHY I STARTED