Replies to 'Troubled Teens'

Quote From: marittr

hi, this time the massage is from the teen itself. i consider myself as a very intelligent and bright kid. I usally have good grades and I have good contact with randoms and friends at school. But I put on this fake smile. I feel like i have to be normal and smiling. it also feels better when Im pretending. my current age is 15, but i've had these problems since i was about 13. it started with outbreaks and fights between me and my parents, and it just continued. but some where among the time, my parents stopped talking to me. I feel like Im still disappointing them of some reason. we have this depressing sillence, when somethings happends (usally my fault) I run away. I escape from my problems cuz my parents only yell. it hurts bad to be yelled at and being punished when all you want is help. i've been involved with serious things the last year, and my parents haven't ever given me a reason to be good, because I feel like the damage is already done, and the scars will always be there. I have laughs with my parents, i go shopping with my mum. I know they want my best and I know i shouldnt do the things I do, but i feel so tired, so burnt out. i just wanna rest, but I dont know how. I even started cying when I read the dialog about "how good do you know your teenager?" cuz I know my parents dont know those things about me, they can always guess, but they have never had the interest to sit down and have a normal, adult conversation with me. and upon that, I think they are about to divorce. my mum has a lack of sosial intelligence, it seems like she doesnt know when to take contact, and I know she loves me, but she doesnt take any warnings seriously until its too late. my father tries his best, but we're not really getting along, and he can be very aggressive, eventhough he is a nice man with good reputation and self-respect. they tell me Not to do things, but they dont tell me to do things how i should. Im just completely tired out and I feel like breaking down again, I dont think so, but I hope it will pass. I dont want go down that black hole.