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I do have all of those feelings and more.  Over the past few weeks I learned alot about my husband.  The story in my post is what I knew at the time.  Well the story evolved into sometihng so horrible.  He said he did that same thing 2 other times.  Not at a massage parlor -- at a prostitutes apartment and in the car.  He was going to another prostitutes (police sting) apt when he got arrested.  Well after much discussion and basically telling him I knew he was lying-- he admitted to doing this for over 3 years with about 30 prostitutes --unprotected oral sex.  He says he has a problem and needs mental health help.  The 2 of us have been reading about sex addiction and he is a text book profile.  He contacted a specialist in sex addiction and will start a 12 step program this coming week.  He is tring and says he never wants to do this again.  He says he could not help himself and when he got arrested it was like he woke up out of a trance.  I am devastated.  Sometimes I cannot even look at him.  I am disgusted.  I have nightmares about it and have a melt down at least once a day.  I am also going to speak with a mental health provider.  The husban I knew was the greatest husband and father I knew.  Now I feel like I dont know him at all.  He says that the guy I know is him but he had this secret life that he compartmentalized.  I am going to hang in and see what happens -- but this is like a horror show I just want to wake up from.  Thanks for your support.  Anyone have advice or similar stories????