Quote From: mewjagThat is how it feels anyway. There is so much going on with me lately and none of it amounts to anything really. The funeral is over, it was sad, it was enlightening, it was uneventful, it was humerous, and it was reverent all at the same time.
And yes Vicki, I do believe Shadow has a new bud to run and play with. =)
It has just been a whirlwind of emotion for me, a lot of emotion I really didn't and don't need to try to deal with atm. Not sure it would ever serve any purpose to really examine it all to be frank. *sigh* Really what is the point? Nothing can or will be changed from dredging it all up and rerunning a million what-ifs and why-fors. We all went to my dad's house after visitation on Tuesday night. This is the first time I have ever been in my father's house....ever. It was a wee bit surreal. Not a picture one of me or my brother, nor of his grandchildren anywhere. Only Cy and his mother. Is there really much to add worth thinking on? Nah. But I will say that was a surprise. Not only because it was so obvious to me, but I took the time for all these years to send him school pics of his grandchildren. QQ (QQ is gamer chat for crying or made me cry).
In other news....our little violist is dazzling them in high school. While we understood he was last chair in the phil and honors orch (a freshman on varsity basically) in three weeks he has moved to second chair. A freshman in second chair in highest orchestra they have is a huge upset needless to say. We sit and watch and I wonder if this roll will continue through his life. Who knows but atm the school is all abuzz over this bespectacled freshman that is wowing them!
Surgery looms for Monday morning, 8:15 am. Someone say some prayers and whisper some hail Mary's and do some happy dances. This has got to go smoothly, there just is no other option. Well there is other options of course and none of which I will have a say in. Whatever will be, will be and all that jazz.
If I am not on for a bit it is because of the surgery. I might be back this weekend though not sure. After my surgery I might have Raj get on here and update you guys or maybe drop you all an email. Best case, I am all perky and will do it myself. ;)
Hugs to all, bbs (be back soon),
Ami
xoxox
Of course you will be back! You still have people to piss off, remember?
Under circumstances like yours, whenever I've been in hospitals or wheeled into surgery, I've always found that it helps to belt out old show tunes. You know, like "Look at me, I'm Sandra Dee". Or "The Hills are Alive" or "I've Grown Accustomed to My (sic) Face". How about "If I Were a Rich Bitch"...
"Let's Do the Time Warp Again" always helps.
But my all-time favourite - "Shall We Dance?"
It relaxes you and makes the nurses and surgeons smile, do their best to ensure that you come out of everything well just so they can shout, "Encore! Encore!"
And you will.
I hold your hand, as always.
