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Quote From: hurthubby

 You see a few years ago I suspected my wife was up to something.  Started to go out with new friends and when I would work second shift she was on the computer and she NEVER used to be on there.   I put on a key logger program that would capture her key strokes.  That very night I called home and the line was busy so I knew she was online.  I came home and checked the program while she slept on the couch.

Now the whole time I am telling myself that this is crazy and I felt bad spying on her but I needed to know.  I saw what looked as a screen name and password and then the phrase " Hello are you on"  She logged on a couple of time asking the same question.   My heart started to beat.  Then HE must of came on because the conversation started.  I only could see her side but I read where she showed him her chest on camera and she said she couldn't wait to see that BIG thing of his again and could not wait to feel that BIG c*ck inside her.    My heart was beating so fast it was all I could hear.   I thought it was going to explode out of my chest!!!

Long story short she was with him twice in his car after his work and she preforemed oral on him twice and he did very little to her.  In fact I read that night that she was to meet him that day for the first time for intercourse!!   However he blew her off that day.   I read about how disapointed she was and about the outfit she brought that day to make it easy for him to get to her....in the car!!!   I found the outfit in the van. 
The next day I read her emails and there was  A LOT of sex talk and size was a main topic.  Big, real man, hope I can take it, can't wait to feel it, etc. ect. ect.

After going through our ups and downs we moved on but I did make her tell me about all the "big" talk.   She finally said that yes he was much bigger than you are you happy.   Then she was blunt about it.   She was excited about his size and that she was looking forward to feeling him.  She also reassured me that she never wanted to leave me and she was not sure why she did it.

I am and always have been insecure about my size and a farily small down there.   I know that she wants more and I think that she regrets not having intercouse with him.   We don't talk about the affair and I don't throw it in her face and we are pretty much past it.  But the other day we did talk about it and she said it is not like I think about a bigger d*ck all the time.  Hmmmmm   what am I to take from that??   "all the time" Should I be worried she will cheat again?   Our sex life is better than before and I learned from this and treat her a lot better and in most ways our relationship better, but she still thinks about "it".   

Am I crazy to worry????

Quote From: hurthubby

 You see a few years ago I suspected my wife was up to something.  Started to go out with new friends and when I would work second shift she was on the computer and she NEVER used to be on there.   I put on a key logger program that would capture her key strokes.  That very night I called home and the line was busy so I knew she was online.  I came home and checked the program while she slept on the couch.

Now the whole time I am telling myself that this is crazy and I felt bad spying on her but I needed to know.  I saw what looked as a screen name and password and then the phrase " Hello are you on"  She logged on a couple of time asking the same question.   My heart started to beat.  Then HE must of came on because the conversation started.  I only could see her side but I read where she showed him her chest on camera and she said she couldn't wait to see that BIG thing of his again and could not wait to feel that BIG c*ck inside her.    My heart was beating so fast it was all I could hear.   I thought it was going to explode out of my chest!!!

Long story short she was with him twice in his car after his work and she preforemed oral on him twice and he did very little to her.  In fact I read that night that she was to meet him that day for the first time for intercourse!!   However he blew her off that day.   I read about how disapointed she was and about the outfit she brought that day to make it easy for him to get to her....in the car!!!   I found the outfit in the van. 
The next day I read her emails and there was  A LOT of sex talk and size was a main topic.  Big, real man, hope I can take it, can't wait to feel it, etc. ect. ect.

After going through our ups and downs we moved on but I did make her tell me about all the "big" talk.   She finally said that yes he was much bigger than you are you happy.   Then she was blunt about it.   She was excited about his size and that she was looking forward to feeling him.  She also reassured me that she never wanted to leave me and she was not sure why she did it.

I am and always have been insecure about my size and a farily small down there.   I know that she wants more and I think that she regrets not having intercouse with him.   We don't talk about the affair and I don't throw it in her face and we are pretty much past it.  But the other day we did talk about it and she said it is not like I think about a bigger d*ck all the time.  Hmmmmm   what am I to take from that??   "all the time" Should I be worried she will cheat again?   Our sex life is better than before and I learned from this and treat her a lot better and in most ways our relationship better, but she still thinks about "it".   

Am I crazy to worry????