Quote From: kimmyannThank you too for the words of encouragement. I want you to know that I started seeing a psychiatrist 2 weeks ago when it came apparent that I couldn't hold it together anymore. While I am working on "issues" I am a walking pharmacy. I take 450 mg Wellbutrin, 3 zanax a day, and 2 Lunesta to sleep. I know all these drugs are a crutch but according to my husband I am not allowed to have a nervous breakdown until he gets home. He swears up and down that this is his last trip to Iraq and I really want to believe it but I've heard that one before. I remember when we were dating he said "If we ever go to war, your really gonna hate my job." He couldn't have been more right about that! I believe that 4 years is a sufficient sacrifice for my family though, don't you think? Hug that little one of yours.
Much Love, Kim
PS I am celebrating 2 days without tears and you all have helped me do it. THANK YOU!
Good to hear from you and glad to be able to help you in any way I can. Please know that there is nothing wrong what so ever with being on tablets to help you get through each day right now, your Doctor saw that you needed this help otherwise he/she would not have put you on these tablets. By the way, I'm still on Anti-depression tablets myself and have been for nearly a year. I saw my Doctor today for a reveiw and she is happy for me to keep taking them for as long as I might need them. I'm only taking a half tablet 10mg, so it's not like I'm taking alot but what I am taking is helping to keep me "Normal" so to speak!!
I really hope that this time what your hubby has said about this being his last trip is true, course I know that you really can't cope with the thought right now that IF he does have to go back, here's hoping and crossing everything that can be crossed!!
Is it helping you to see your Psychiatrist? If so, how many times per week do you get to see him/her?
When I was seeing a Social Worker, at first it was once a week, then once every 2 weeks and then once every 3 weeks. It was great that she was able to come here to my home, so I didn't have to be worrying about having to drive out to where she worked and not having to worry about if Stephanie needed to have a sleep or whatever. And another nice thing was that I didn't have to pay a cent to have her come here as she was employed by the Australian Defence Force and worked in whats called the Defence Community Organistion.
Susi(The Social Worker) was so good with Stephanie when she was here, if Stephanie wanted to get up on Susi's lap then Susi would pick her up and put her on her lap and they would play tea parties together. As Susi said, it better to include the children in these things than to exclude them.
Anyway today when I saw my Doctor she was very happy to see how well I am doing now, I really do feel heaps better, mind you I still do get the blues once in a while but hey that happens and I know that it should never get as bad as it did when I first had my depression. This will happen with you too. Life will get better for you too, but also know that you will have up and down days and thats ok. And if you feel like having a good cry, have a good cry it can really help you lots, but also know that if you can't stop crying then thats not real good. I knew this to be true when I spent two days in a row crying and not knowing how to stop!! Thats when I called out for help.
Well my dear friend, please TAKE CARE and know that you are not alone and that you can always come on here and just talk about how you are feeling at that moment, be it good or bad!!
Bye-for-now, LOVE KELLY.
