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February 11, 2008, 7:52 am PST
Troubled Teens
Quote From: kccameronI don't know if this is the right place to post this but oh well... I'm 14 years old and I'm depressed! First of all, I can't stand my family, especially my sister and brother. I hate them more than anything in this world. I had no idea I could have SO much hate for two people. My sister.. she gets on my every damn nerve. I can't stand her, I even called the police on her, she hits me like Im some toy! When she moves out, it'll probably be the happiest day of my life. And my brother... I don't even know where to start. We used to get along but then he completely changed. He yelled, cussed, hit my mom and everyone else in the family. On my dad's birthday, my sister and brother got into a fight and my brother suddenly just snapped, he kept threatening to commit suicide. My sister had to hold him and calm him down. While my brother was having his "breakdown" he kept saying how all his friends ditched him and they all make fun of him and throw stuff at him during lunch. Well, even though I didn't care for my brother anymore I wasn't going to let him kill himself, so I tried calming him down, well that surely didn't work so I called my mom from work.. when she got home she yelled at me like it was my fault and pushed me out of the way. Well he finally calmed down and three days later he was hanging out with his "friends" that apparently ditched him and made him want to commit suicide! I seriously could not believe him. When he was having his little "meltdown" I was SO tempted to tell him how my ex-best friend ditched me too and that I've been depressed for years. He lied about everything! First of all, my high school does not serve lunch to students who get out at 12:19pm and my brother gets out of school at 12:19 everyday, so of course he lied about his friends throwing food at him during lunch! He also said he beat up some seniors at the tennis court with some of his friends.. please! He actually admitted he lied about that when we were in the car. All that was back in December of '06 and now.. he's fine.. and I'm not. Ever since that time, he acts like he's the perfect child, every time I disagree with my parents he gets mad at me. Every time I get mad, he tells me to stop giving attitude .. I'm sick of him! I'm not allowed to show any emotion other than HAPPY! YAY! around him. Ugh! Anyway my parents.. well my mom, she's hot and cold with me. She gets on my nerves 95% of the time but so does the rest of my family! My dad.. ugh! His daily routine is to work all day, get home at ten/eleven, shower, bathroom, watch tv, smoke, drink, eat, smoke, drink, smoke, get drunk, wake me up at 4am on school days, talk to me while I'm trying to figure out what the best way is to tell him to get the heck out of my room so I can get some sleep, cause some chaos, wrecking the house, then goes to bed. That's pretty much it. It's a lot I know, I hope no one passed out from reading this, but I really needed to vent.. I just don't know anymore! I hate always getting mad and getting suicidal thoughts stuck in my head!! I cry myself to sleep every night. I feel like I have nobody on my side, I've been depressed for too many years, I just want it to end! dood seriously i feel you. I used to hate my family too i would do anything to not stay home. so i resorted to drugs and such. i still feel that way. and i still cry myself to sleep a lot. and like ive cut to relieve myself of all the pain in this shitty world. don't end it. like i have an OCD called trichotillamania, which is the obsession to pull out your hair. i'm kinda healed from it and i haven't cut in a while. so ive been depressed and such. but chica...we need to stick together.
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