I am 32 years old and from the time I was little I have always wanted to be a mother. I come from a big family. My mother had eleven children and most of my siblings all have a few children of there own. My husband and I have been trying to have children and trying to adopt for the last seven years, I have had multiple surgeries for severe endometriosis and fibercystic ovaries. On my last surgery they removed my left ovary and tube. That was a year ago and now they want to do a full hysterectomy on me. I know that I need to have it done but I can't stand the thought of me never being able to expereince the love of my own child.
My husband and I have tried open adoption 4 different times and the mother always changes her mind when she has the baby. The first time this happen we were so set on having a child that I was so depressed and pulled myself away from the world for a few months and I didn't even realize that I was being that way. You never get used to someone doing that to you. After the fourth time and we had that beautiful baby boy in our home for about a week , she came and took him back only to be aressted for doing drugs but still was able to keep that woderful inocent boy. We would try other options but I am so drained even though I will never give up. I just don't know where to go from here. I have put my dreams on hold due to the sudden tragic death of my step son . I had to do that to help my husband in any way that I could. I even told him that I am ok with not having children. But he knew that I was just saying that so he didn't feel like us having a child was more important to me then loosing his child to a tragic car accident.
I am hoping that Dr Phil will be able to help me . I have been writing him for a few years now. I aslo pray that someone out there will read this and help us in any way that they can.
There are so many children that deserve a loving home that are not being taken care of the way that they need to help them strive in life. I pray for a miracle everyday.Thank you for listening