Topic : My Adoption Story

I was 17 when I had gotten pregnant with my first child. Still in school and the father was much older than me at the time. He was involved but I wasnt sure who the father was being as I had relations with 2 at the time. I wasnt going to give my child up for adoption. I was set on having the child. I did have him and kept him. I finished high school and even went to college. I have raised him by myself for 13 yrs now. In 2002 I had relations with a man I had known for 8 yrs. I got pregnant. We split up and I was set on adoption. My son doesnt have a father thats involved and I was struggling in raising him. I never got prenatal care at all because I did not want any attachment. I waited until I was 7 months to contact an agency for adoption. Now the agency only did the open adoption. I was explained everything and shown video's of the families wanting to adopt. I got to chose the family I felt would be a great family to raise my child. I got to meet them only once before I went to the hospital to deliver. Now the whole time during my labor process I had my doubts of following through with the adoption. I did feel pressured because they had driven about 3 hours to be at the hospital for the birth. The agancy had paperwork after the birth for me to decide how much contact I wanted and what kinds of contact I wanted. I really wasnt sure what i wanted. I was emotional as it was just giving birth to a girl. I always had said I wanted a boy and a girl. But not as a single parent. The agency said that the paperwork was not bonded and the family had all rights to either remain in contact with me or to not to continue contact. Once it was time to leave the hospital that was the hardest thing in my life to walk away without the child. I kept telling myself that she deserves this and she will be taken care of. I have gotten to see her twice a yr and had gotten letters, pictures and artwork of hers. She will be 7 this october. Last yr I had only gotten to see her in the fall. The parents have gotten to a point for her to decide to see me. I think its a little young for a child to make a choice like that but thats their choice. I havent heard from the family this yr at all. I did send out an Easter card and letter. I guess I have had my time to heal and accept the choice I had made and I see she is well taken care of and I couldnt ask for anything more. They had the heart to accept her into their home and accept her as their child. I can only hope when she is older she will know who I am and maybe keep me a part of her life if she choses.

I was adopted at 6 months old thru Catholic Social Services in 1966. I was worth 108.4 mill in 1989.
I got Frank Murkowski to reverse the Statutes of Limitations in 2003 after telling him about Alaskas own
"Hotel Hanaio" and the "mastermind" behind what the Iran president calls "experiments" blew his brains out on the USAF base in Anchorage lately...so hey...

Life is for you to 1. stop and look and listen 2. take advantage of "good opportunites" and whatever you do:

Don't let anyone make you feel uncomfortable about life, yourself or who you really are!!!

At 43 I have had to pull my boots up and tone up and climb high up life's mountains of bullshit...

so if I can do it so can you - and also - when you are adopted you are in NO WAY obligated to stay with the family you got stuck with - hang out with friends as long as you can to get thru childhood - see if they will adopt you and the states usually help out the next family...my best friends father is a retired USAF Colonel and was STEAMED and tried to adopt me and couldn't but let me know "one mistake and jail it is"!!!

Your destiny changed when you did not get your biological connections after birth...me too!!!

so wanna know what I did? next best thing and other cultures do it - animal and plant kingdom!!

Meaning you go into the woods/forests and find out that  some animals are abandoned after birth and have to survive alone - when you see that you will feel better.

And see that the abandoned animal is not alone very long - other ones of different biological make-up wander over and help...

We are all in it together...

Make a difference...

I did and I was told I would die by the age of 40...

so don't believe what you hear - believe with your heart and God will see and let you know...

YEAH well you were my child when I watched you grow in your mothers tummy...

Now that you are born I am no longer your FATHER???

Contact Harvard University - contact the President of Harvard if you have to...

I know the feeling...read my story and you will see - any rich adopted kids out there?

Um...can you find the local senior center and go and start eating there or play bingo...

when they have scanned you and figure out your not a bad person you can start asking them...

Most ( at least in Alaska) are retired cops, social workers, teachers and other "child occupations" and they can may be help you and visit the family and then wander into the children's services and get some action!

Expecially if they RETIRED from there - see my point?

Same goes with the cops - the retired ones know where to go to get some action taken...

Try that - other wise just look online for adoption attorneys...and ask for help...

Have the kid have school friends and officials document the "emotional abuse" and it is illegal...

who told you that was a liar!!!

Federal laws are in place to over see the operations of state funded programs...

Report this as a crime to the federal agency that deals with children...

They have one for child support so they have one for children as well I am sure without researching it..

Take care