Topic : Anorexia

I am SOO sorry you are going through this and have been all of your life. God blessed you with a child and your child needs her mommy. I know anorexia isn't something you can just stop and make it go away.. it a disease that you have to work at and fight and it sounds like you have been fighting it. Keep on doing that and help your body get stronger so you can watch your baby girl grow up!! You said you see a doctor? Do you see a dietician? A therapist? You need to get all the help you can get. Hang in there and keep fighting this disease and just remember that there are many anorexic survivors and you can be one of them. You are in my thoughts. :-]

Hi my name is Trisha and I am 21 years old with a great husband and two wonderful kids but I have been suffering with anorexia since I was 14 years old and for the past 4 years I was fine with no eating disorder and happy with myself.  In the past two weeks I have stopped eating and started abusing laxatives and lost 12 pounds, my height is 5'6 weight now is 142 and i am able to lie to my family about my weight loss because I tell them I am sick or I will eat later.  Buy I have a 2 little girls who need their mother and I know if I do not stop i will probably die.  

My question to anyone who will answer is should I tell my husband about my eating disorder or continue to live in silent shame waiting for him  to figure it out on his own.

 

Please no judgmental comments I know what I am doing is wrong that is why I am asking for help.

i am 33 and have been battling eating disorders for over 15 years.  I am anorexic.  I am a stablized anorexic i guess.  I am 5'4 and weigh 105lbs.  Yes i understand the BMI is 18 and that is underweight but i have not lost weight in a while.  After all these years and i just started therapy last year i have remembered apparently years or horrific sexual child abuse that went on unnoticed and unspoken for the first 15 years of my life.  So after hearing that you would have an eating disorder too....lol...now i am being diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder.  I am overwhelmed...i feel ashamed and embarrassed and all this stress causes me to struggle with anorexia every day and i have to force myself to eat hourly....and then to remember that today right now this very minute i am safe and no one can hurt me....is anyone else dealing with issues like mine?  i need help trying to stay "grounded" and to remember to eat.....lol

3 years ago I was diagnosed with an eating disorder.

 

I am 5' 4'', and at my lowest, I was just below 90 lbs.

 

In 3 days I turn 45 and I am at 119 lbs now.

I have to be truthful.....I hate being at this weight and I hate being where I am now.

The 'urge' is so strong to lose it all and I am so tempted to walk that path'  again !!

I hate the way I look....

I hate the size I am now....and it's driving me NUTS !!!

 

Is this a mid-life crisis I am facing ??

Will these feelings pass ??.....or am I in real 'trouble' again......?!?

 

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HI, I am in the same boat as you. I have been there too. I am 24 and have had anorexia since I was 16. My Husband doesn't know, and only one of my friends do. My husband knows that I used to struggle with it but doesn't know that it is still a big part of my life.  None of my family know. I too have a daughter and am struggling with the same question you are. Do I tell or not tell....I do not know how to answer your question. This is something that you have to look into your heart for. I have thought on many occasions about telling him. but then I never do. I fear that he will constantly be on "watch". I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone!

My name is Becca. I was suffering from bulumia up until march/april of this year (for 4 years at least). My stepdad found out, and he put me through therapy for about a month. Well AS soon as i quit therapy, i started not eating for days at a time. Now, if I still eat too much at once I'll still throw it up. But thats not often anymore. most of the time I will eat a nutri-grain bar or some peanuts once a day and that will be it for the next day or 2. Its like I went from one extreme to another and can't stop. Everytime my parents ask how i'm doing i say fine, even though it's obvious i'm not gaining enough weight. When i started therapy i weighted 92 lbs, now i weigh 98 and feel HUGE. At the time this started, i was reading all the celebrity magazines and watching all the shows. i don't now though. i got the idea in my head that i wanted to look like one of the super skinny models. don't get me wrong, some days i wake up and look at myself in the mirror and say damn you look skinny. but then other days i feel so gross and fat. i can't figure out what to do anymore. any help or advice would be greatly appriciated right now. i've tried telling my boyfriend about this, but his philosophy is eat more you won't be like that. I do work out 4 days a week doing "power yoga" and pilates 2 times a day, plus 25 mins on the tredmill 3 days a week and an ab lounger 30 mins 3 days a  week. i weigh 98lbs and am a size 0 jeans/shorts, or girls size 12/14 depending on the length. im tired of being like this. i know its not healthy and i'm getting near the point of wanting to have kids, but know i can't w/o being healthy. please help.

Hej Becca.

I know, it is much harder than that, but that is my advise for you; reach out. I don't really know about the system, where you live, but I know that most of the time, the help IS there - what often is missing is the courage and take it. I truely believe, that you can recover.

 

There are no magic solutions, but with patience you can do it. I believe in you. If you can't eat without therapy - then get the therapy. Look - I am suffering from Anorexia Nervosa and I know, that it is much harder than that, but the longer you wait the harder it will get.

 

I know and i understand, really, how scared you can be for life. But maybe the next time you have a "clear moment" (because i truely think you do have some of those) - then reach out. Talk to your dokter, tell your parents, or like that.

 

I know it s hard, and i wish that I could just do magic to make it easyer, but i can't. I can only hope for you, that you will reach out for the help, that you need.

My name is Kimber and I have a little known ED.  It's called purging disorder.  It is unlike the two that most people think make up all ED's, anorexia and bulimia.  I actually eat normal portions of food.  I do not over eat, eat too many calories etc,  but I do periodically (some weeks more than others) purge what food I do eat at least 3 times a week.  I do not purge all meals, just one here and there. 

I am not a normal weight, I am a bit over weight but not "fat".  I don't feel I have a distorted body image.  I know I need to lose weight and am working on it.  I eat very healthy meals most of the time.  When I do feel too full, even after normal portions, or I feel I've eaten something unhealthy I will purge it.

I know there are others out there with this disorder but it's so unknown or talked about.  I think everyone would like to think there are only two ED's and stick with that.

Is there anyone else who has or has had this particular disorder?

You are definitely in trouble.  I'd seek proper help and counseling ASAP.

I am sitting here watching the show about anorexia. My heart goes out to Jessica. I am a survivor of anorexia. I lost 100 pounds and my lowest weight was 90 pounds. People who are immersed in anorexia can't see a way out. When immersed in an eating disorder, there doesn't seem to be a possibility of ever living free.

I just want to express to Jessica, and any others struggling with eating disorders, that it is possible and I am living proof of this. I was so malnourished my heart stopped and doctors said I would not survive. But it is possible. I am a healthy, 32 year old single mother who survived nearly 10 years of anorexia. There is hope.
Shera