Topic : Anorexia

Quote From: ivan_ho

All is well with me, sort of anyway. I've eaten like 600 calories today and I feel sick, but for the last few days I have managed to eat approx. 1500 calories a day and been nearly okay with it. I've felt guilty about it, but not physically sick like today. I think it is because I have exercised during the week though. The days when I exercise are easier to get through and eat somewhat properly because then I can justify my eating. 

Do you believe that you would have thrown up if you had been alone and not had your fiancé with you, and does he know how you feel about food and yourself? 

My fiancé knows, and tries to support me, but he doesn't get it. He's sweet to try anyway though... I don't think I could go through with throwing up my food, I don't like throwing up, but it's still a good thing to have my fiancé around to look after me. He allways gives me compliments and such as well, and I think it helps me because I think I'd be much worse off without his kind and loving words of reasurance. 

Quote From: aoakley89

I am glad to hear you are well.  There have been days in the past when my calorie intake was very litle (300 to 400) I would be dizzy, light headed, dark circles under my eyes and no energy to do anything.  I did eventually increase to about 500 to 800 a day, where I am now, and on a good day I will have about 1000, but really feel guilty and sick from eating all of the food.  You know, that is a difficult question to answer, would I have thrown up?  Hmm, to be honest, I'm not sure.  I have thrown up in the past, only for a week.  I couldn't go through with it and I couldn't justify the wasting of the food I ate when I know there are people starving for food in this world, it seemed wrong, so not eating seemed more logical, if I don't eat I'm not wasting the food.  That probably sounds weird.  

  

Shawn does know how I feel about my body, myself and food, he even knows my guilt when I do eat.  He tries to be very supportive much like your fiancee, with kind and loving words.  Shawn has been very patient with me and very angry, only because he worries about my health and doesn't want to lose me.  Shawn always tells me he loves me just the way I am, he loved me before the weight loss and he loves me now.  I know he means what he says, his actions show his love.  I know he tries to understand when I explain to him exactly what I'm feeling and how I'm feeling regarding food, but, I don't think he really gets it.   

  

For a Monday, I'm not doing too bad.  I do feel good today and I am happy for that.  Talk to you soon and thanks for sharing your private thoughts.  We seem to be fairly similar even with our fiancee's and that's cool!  Your words are kind!  Take care and talk to you soon!   

  

Christina 

Quote From: robin26

I have been battling an eating disorder since I was 11. It started with anorexia then I went into treatment twice and after that I became bulimic. I am now 25 going on 26 and I am now diagnosed with eating disorder nos. I am not doing very good at this moment I am limiting my calories to under 1000 calories and to make things worst is the fact that I have type 2 diabetes I know I am fat and I want to be slim because that is what I am use to but then I have to kids and a husband. But I am willing to do anything to be back where I was and I do not care about the consequences. But I do not know what to do should I just ignore it or give in and let me get so tied in to my disorder. even though I think I am allready there. I need help but do not know what to do. I think I have a problem but then again i do not think that it is a problem. What should I do? What do you think?

Quote From: prka12000

I wish I could explain what my problem is. I just dont like food. I think it is a waste of time to eat! I only eat to stay alive and have all my life. I have always heard "just exercise and you will eat". But what if you just do not like eating! I am a 45 year old male. I am 5'5" and way 105lbs. always have.   

But I just dont like to eat. What would you call this?  

   

I have not heard from anyone whom has a name for this? Is this a disorder?. What would you call it? I look in the mirror or pictures of myself and see this skinny weak looking person. And when I try to gain weight. I just get sick of eating because it is so uncomfortable and then I just go back to not eating because I get bored of doing it. I would eat if I could find it interesting but I just get bored of it.  

   

   

Quote From: katie_lee

YOU HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST! MORE HONEST 

Your hair stops falling out -(i lost by hand fulls at a time) 

You have your period (females) -you can become infertile if you practice) 

Your nails grow 

Your skin is soft and not flaky dry 

Your skin isn't  yellow its normal 

Your eyes aren't sunken in with dark circles 

Your less moody 

Your more happy 

Your more outgoing 

Your less angry 

You make friends and keep them 

You get along with your parents, friends, siblings, co-workers etc. 

Your alive and not slowly commmitign suicide 

You stop losing bone mass (osteporosis) 

You can sit on chairs and floors with out your butt killing you (bone to floor/chair is very unconfortable). 

You accomplish a huge goal 

you stop lying daily 

you love yourself 

your teeth stop/don't rotten from the acid 

you can workout and exercise normally 

you can play sports 

you can walk to classes 

you don't get dizzy 

you don't pass out 

you get your memory back 

you stop talking funny 

you can travel 

you can be a role model 

YOU CAN HONOR GOD BY HONORING YOUR BODY 

you can actually start enjoying food 

you can sleep 

you can buy other things than just food (bulimics) 

your stomach stops hurting 

you can go to the bathroom normally 

you can be in a honest true relationship (boyfriend/girlfriend, husband,wife) 

you can drive a car 

you can grow up to be an adult and not a child anymore even though your 35 for example 

you don't look like a boy (females) 

your breasts get bigger 

your hair on your arms and stomach aren't long, thin, and dark anymore 

you can be a better parent 

your eye sight gets better 

you can live on your own 

you can hold a job 

your not depressed 

your not suicidal 

you love life 

you look healthy 

you feel better 

  

WoW I could go on and on and on and on and on. haha I hope this list helps at least one person at least think about recovery. It is amazing to be in recovery. You become so proud of yourself that you could actually meet a goal or yours and give yourself life. Well you can't do it without Christ so he will give you life again but you know what I mean. I shall post on here soon. Everyone have a supberb day. Adios 

  

In Him, 

Katie P. 

  

Quote From: katie_lee

YOU HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST! MORE HONEST 

Your hair stops falling out -(i lost by hand fulls at a time) 

You have your period (females) -you can become infertile if you practice) 

Your nails grow 

Your skin is soft and not flaky dry 

Your skin isn't  yellow its normal 

Your eyes aren't sunken in with dark circles 

Your less moody 

Your more happy 

Your more outgoing 

Your less angry 

You make friends and keep them 

You get along with your parents, friends, siblings, co-workers etc. 

Your alive and not slowly commmitign suicide 

You stop losing bone mass (osteporosis) 

You can sit on chairs and floors with out your butt killing you (bone to floor/chair is very unconfortable). 

You accomplish a huge goal 

you stop lying daily 

you love yourself 

your teeth stop/don't rotten from the acid 

you can workout and exercise normally 

you can play sports 

you can walk to classes 

you don't get dizzy 

you don't pass out 

you get your memory back 

you stop talking funny 

you can travel 

you can be a role model 

YOU CAN HONOR GOD BY HONORING YOUR BODY 

you can actually start enjoying food 

you can sleep 

you can buy other things than just food (bulimics) 

your stomach stops hurting 

you can go to the bathroom normally 

you can be in a honest true relationship (boyfriend/girlfriend, husband,wife) 

you can drive a car 

you can grow up to be an adult and not a child anymore even though your 35 for example 

you don't look like a boy (females) 

your breasts get bigger 

your hair on your arms and stomach aren't long, thin, and dark anymore 

you can be a better parent 

your eye sight gets better 

you can live on your own 

you can hold a job 

your not depressed 

your not suicidal 

you love life 

you look healthy 

you feel better 

  

WoW I could go on and on and on and on and on. haha I hope this list helps at least one person at least think about recovery. It is amazing to be in recovery. You become so proud of yourself that you could actually meet a goal or yours and give yourself life. Well you can't do it without Christ so he will give you life again but you know what I mean. I shall post on here soon. Everyone have a supberb day. Adios 

  

In Him, 

Katie P. 

  

Quote From: katie_lee

YOU HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST! MORE HONEST 

Your hair stops falling out -(i lost by hand fulls at a time) 

You have your period (females) -you can become infertile if you practice) 

Your nails grow 

Your skin is soft and not flaky dry 

Your skin isn't  yellow its normal 

Your eyes aren't sunken in with dark circles 

Your less moody 

Your more happy 

Your more outgoing 

Your less angry 

You make friends and keep them 

You get along with your parents, friends, siblings, co-workers etc. 

Your alive and not slowly commmitign suicide 

You stop losing bone mass (osteporosis) 

You can sit on chairs and floors with out your butt killing you (bone to floor/chair is very unconfortable). 

You accomplish a huge goal 

you stop lying daily 

you love yourself 

your teeth stop/don't rotten from the acid 

you can workout and exercise normally 

you can play sports 

you can walk to classes 

you don't get dizzy 

you don't pass out 

you get your memory back 

you stop talking funny 

you can travel 

you can be a role model 

YOU CAN HONOR GOD BY HONORING YOUR BODY 

you can actually start enjoying food 

you can sleep 

you can buy other things than just food (bulimics) 

your stomach stops hurting 

you can go to the bathroom normally 

you can be in a honest true relationship (boyfriend/girlfriend, husband,wife) 

you can drive a car 

you can grow up to be an adult and not a child anymore even though your 35 for example 

you don't look like a boy (females) 

your breasts get bigger 

your hair on your arms and stomach aren't long, thin, and dark anymore 

you can be a better parent 

your eye sight gets better 

you can live on your own 

you can hold a job 

your not depressed 

your not suicidal 

you love life 

you look healthy 

you feel better 

  

WoW I could go on and on and on and on and on. haha I hope this list helps at least one person at least think about recovery. It is amazing to be in recovery. You become so proud of yourself that you could actually meet a goal or yours and give yourself life. Well you can't do it without Christ so he will give you life again but you know what I mean. I shall post on here soon. Everyone have a supberb day. Adios 

  

In Him, 

Katie P. 

  

Quote From: ivan_ho

Tell me something I don't allready know! 

I know all the possible consequenses of eatingdisorders. I know, intellectually, that I'm not fat. I know how good it would be if I stopped having this disorder and just became healthey, it'd be a great idea infact. But you know what, it doesn't help me one single bit that you also know this! 

That why I don't tell people I have an eatingdisorder, because they allways say "you shouldn't have that because you're so pretty and thin, eatingdisorders just make you go bla bla bla bla bla bla bla" I KNOW! I know because I'm the one having it and I've done my research and I know how I'm thinking! And again, it does not - does not - help that you also know! 

  

Moreover, God can just piss off for all I care. I don't believe in him anyway and people who do allways condemn me to hell all the time so I don't like them or their stupid religion! 

Quote From: ivan_ho

Tell me something I don't allready know! 

I know all the possible consequenses of eatingdisorders. I know, intellectually, that I'm not fat. I know how good it would be if I stopped having this disorder and just became healthey, it'd be a great idea infact. But you know what, it doesn't help me one single bit that you also know this! 

That why I don't tell people I have an eatingdisorder, because they allways say "you shouldn't have that because you're so pretty and thin, eatingdisorders just make you go bla bla bla bla bla bla bla" I KNOW! I know because I'm the one having it and I've done my research and I know how I'm thinking! And again, it does not - does not - help that you also know! 

  

Moreover, God can just piss off for all I care. I don't believe in him anyway and people who do allways condemn me to hell all the time so I don't like them or their stupid religion!