Topic : Anorexia

 

  I have been battling anorexia nervosa for 14 years now... I am being confronted and forced to get treatment from my husband... I want the help but I don't know how to let go... doing so means I  have to come face to face with a past that is filled with trauma and to hard to emotionally digest....Now that I am getting help and going to therapy it's even more out of control...my therapist insist that coming to terms with my past will help let go of the need to always be in control...But my demons are terrifying....to scary to face....I feel like I'm spinning in cicles..Looking for something, some sort of magical cure....

hi i have beenstruggling with anorexia for the past 7 years ever since i was 11 years old therefore having lost my adolescent through this lifestyle i have been in and out of hospitals nothing seems to work i hate this disease but yet something keeps me attached to it as if without is i have no identity sounds stupid but i grew up with this and i have a hard time letting it go but so desperatly want to i feel like i am chained i know what to do i even know how but i am too scared to step out of this lifestyle

yours trully ashley

I've been doing pretty well for about a year now....maybe a little longer.  It's an internal struggle, but one which I am currently winning.  Have any of you been doing well and then had a set-back in becoming pregnant.  The idea of gaining all that wait is causing me great anxiety.  I havn't slepped in days - and I'm not even pregnant yet!!!

hi hailee im 16 too and ive suffered bulemia and anorexia and binge purge disorders for about 4 years. i know where u r right now and how u feel if u ever want to talk my email is bluluver22@aol.com or look me up on myspace. my name is kalyne owens. stay strong. and even though i dont know u. i love u.

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 Hi, I am a 37 year old recovering anorexic.  I had become this way at the age of 11 just like you.  I had a awful childhood and have tried long and hard to overcome this disease.  I know what you are going through.  I did this to myself until I met my now husband of 18 years, who immediately noticed that something was wrong.  This was something that my mother and father never did or cared to do.  I stopped for a couple of years and then I had my son who is now 16.  When I had him I didn't gain much weight because my body was so worn down,  I had him at 6 months and 3 weeks, he was so small that it is a true miracle that he is here.   You are young you have time to have kids, get your feelings under control and take care of your self, get more healthy because this disease takes it out of you.  You deplete your body of so many things that you need.  Take your time it will come.  I also had a bad time after I had my son because of the weight and things that my parents said and did.  I had a relapse about a year after he was born and almost died.  Please be careful this disease is about control.  I didn't have any control over my life so I controlled the only thing I could my weight.  My husband and son played a big part of my recovery.  depend on someone other than yourself.  Get counseling and get checked out by a doctor.  I will talk with you and try to help you anyway I can.  I hope that you do well.  Please write me if you want to talk.  I am here to tell you that it does not help you at all to do this.  This does not help you control anything or change anything.  Write me if you want to.

Hi there,

 

I'd really like to exchange some mail with other anorexics like myself. I'm so desperate for help and I'm getting really afraid about my health and getting some support. I feel so alone and isolated here. The two people I used to talk with are now both dead (both anorexics too) and I genuinely fear that I will be next. I have no clue as to how to help myself or start to feel a little better even so I can start looking at my eating issues. Aside from the purging, my weight lately has taken yet another nose dive. I just don't know how much more my body can cope with?

 

The following txt is a letter I wrote to a centre in the USA looking for help for my disorder.

 

I'm writing from Christchurch, New Zealand. I've been searching now for over two years for a treatment programme - any treatment programme somewhere that I can afford!
Here in NZ, there are no centres like you have in the States to treat anorexia. There is one hospital for eating disorders that serves the whole country, it has six beds. You can imagin how busy they are.
I've had inpatient treatment there about three times over the last ten years. I get well - I fall back. I guess the programme is more designed to re-feed rather than rehabilitate anyway. This service has refused me any further treatment, I haven't had any contact with them for over five years & they say I'm cronic and untreatable and subsequently won't have me back. They only treat younger people who have a better chance at recovery. I can't blame them for that, they have such limited funding so they use it where it'll make a difference.

I know I can get well, I just need a little help! I don't have a therapist either as there are none here that know anything about eating disorders and anyone I've approached is too afraid to see me as my condition is too medically unsafe.
I even went on national TV to try get help! (and still didn't get any).
Unfortunately the cost of US hospitals are well beyond what I (hubby and me) could pay. But I see yours is out patient and you mention cheaper rates in some circustances.

Do you accept international clients? and if so, what sort of charges do you have?

I'm feeling really desperate these days, I'm forty years old now and I'm quite worried about my health. I'm beginning to feel extremely unwell most days and have no support - medical or pyscological to help me.
I have a great life otherwise, a husband who loves me, a fantastic business which I own, a budding art career and I really want to further my acting skills.
I live on a couple of 'cup a soups' a day and whatever I (accidently) digest and don't purge during the two or three binges I have a day.

If you can't help me, could you suggest someone/somewhere that could?

Thank you for taking the time to read my letter

 

LG

im 23 years old. 5'5 and i weight 105 lbs. Im not anorexic or bulimic. I can eat whatever I desire and it does not put any weight on me. I wish there was a way I could gain weight. Only time I ever gained weight was when I was pregnant with my son. Gained 45 lbs.

hi i dont really know where to start about 4 months ago i weight 13stone 8lbs now to day i weight 10stone 6 but i went rite down to 9s 5lbs. the thing is i started to make my self sick after every thing that i eat and i lost the weight so fast and ended up in hospial for over a week. when i came out i started to eat again but not makeing my self sick. but now i have got up to 10stone and a half when i eat i have been makeing my self sick again. i dont want to be as fat as i was before but i no makeing myself sick like this cant be helping me in the long run, i dont know what to do and diets dont work....

please help me

Hi everyone. I'm coming over to this board (from the bulimia board) because it seems no one is around there. I thought I'd check here and see if anyone is on this board. Take care.

There was really nowhere else to put this.  I don't get why ED-NOS gets ignored.  It has that title because if you don't have 100% of the diagnostic criteria for the others it's what you get dx.  We hurt just as much as others and despite my weight (due to some other medical issues) I have a lot more in common with anoretics that bulimics.

Or did anyway...I'm in recovery.