Hi there,
I'd really like to exchange some mail with other anorexics like myself. I'm so desperate for help and I'm getting really afraid about my health and getting some support. I feel so alone and isolated here. The two people I used to talk with are now both dead (both anorexics too) and I genuinely fear that I will be next. I have no clue as to how to help myself or start to feel a little better even so I can start looking at my eating issues. Aside from the purging, my weight lately has taken yet another nose dive. I just don't know how much more my body can cope with?
The following txt is a letter I wrote to a centre in the USA looking for help for my disorder.
I'm writing from Christchurch, New Zealand. I've been searching now for over two years for a treatment programme - any treatment programme somewhere that I can afford!
Here in NZ, there are no centres like you have in the States to treat anorexia. There is one hospital for eating disorders that serves the whole country, it has six beds. You can imagin how busy they are.
I've had inpatient treatment there about three times over the last ten years. I get well - I fall back. I guess the programme is more designed to re-feed rather than rehabilitate anyway. This service has refused me any further treatment, I haven't had any contact with them for over five years & they say I'm cronic and untreatable and subsequently won't have me back. They only treat younger people who have a better chance at recovery. I can't blame them for that, they have such limited funding so they use it where it'll make a difference.
I know I can get well, I just need a little help! I don't have a therapist either as there are none here that know anything about eating disorders and anyone I've approached is too afraid to see me as my condition is too medically unsafe.
I even went on national TV to try get help! (and still didn't get any).
Unfortunately the cost of US hospitals are well beyond what I (hubby and me) could pay. But I see yours is out patient and you mention cheaper rates in some circustances.
Do you accept international clients? and if so, what sort of charges do you have?
I'm feeling really desperate these days, I'm forty years old now and I'm quite worried about my health. I'm beginning to feel extremely unwell most days and have no support - medical or pyscological to help me.
I have a great life otherwise, a husband who loves me, a fantastic business which I own, a budding art career and I really want to further my acting skills.
I live on a couple of 'cup a soups' a day and whatever I (accidently) digest and don't purge during the two or three binges I have a day.
If you can't help me, could you suggest someone/somewhere that could?
Thank you for taking the time to read my letter
LG
