Quote From: becca21My name is Becca. I was suffering from bulumia up until march/april of this year (for 4 years at least). My stepdad found out, and he put me through therapy for about a month. Well AS soon as i quit therapy, i started not eating for days at a time. Now, if I still eat too much at once I'll still throw it up. But thats not often anymore. most of the time I will eat a nutri-grain bar or some peanuts once a day and that will be it for the next day or 2. Its like I went from one extreme to another and can't stop. Everytime my parents ask how i'm doing i say fine, even though it's obvious i'm not gaining enough weight. When i started therapy i weighted 92 lbs, now i weigh 98 and feel HUGE. At the time this started, i was reading all the celebrity magazines and watching all the shows. i don't now though. i got the idea in my head that i wanted to look like one of the super skinny models. don't get me wrong, some days i wake up and look at myself in the mirror and say damn you look skinny. but then other days i feel so gross and fat. i can't figure out what to do anymore. any help or advice would be greatly appriciated right now. i've tried telling my boyfriend about this, but his philosophy is eat more you won't be like that. I do work out 4 days a week doing "power yoga" and pilates 2 times a day, plus 25 mins on the tredmill 3 days a week and an ab lounger 30 mins 3 days a week. i weigh 98lbs and am a size 0 jeans/shorts, or girls size 12/14 depending on the length. im tired of being like this. i know its not healthy and i'm getting near the point of wanting to have kids, but know i can't w/o being healthy. please help.
Hej Becca.
I know, it is much harder than that, but that is my advise for you; reach out. I don't really know about the system, where you live, but I know that most of the time, the help IS there - what often is missing is the courage and take it. I truely believe, that you can recover.
There are no magic solutions, but with patience you can do it. I believe in you. If you can't eat without therapy - then get the therapy. Look - I am suffering from Anorexia Nervosa and I know, that it is much harder than that, but the longer you wait the harder it will get.
I know and i understand, really, how scared you can be for life. But maybe the next time you have a "clear moment" (because i truely think you do have some of those) - then reach out. Talk to your dokter, tell your parents, or like that.
I know it s hard, and i wish that I could just do magic to make it easyer, but i can't. I can only hope for you, that you will reach out for the help, that you need.
