Topic : Anorexia

Anorexia is a part of my life for 2 years now

I've lost 30 pounds in 3 months

Today eveyone think I'm complitely cure

But there's this obsession that stay inside of me

I Can't stop counting calories , I Can't stop cheking my body in the mirror after having a snack

I Have this obsession that don't want to go away

At school I'm never eating

Because I'm scare about what people will think about me

Since I Started to have that disease , I Started having problem with my concentration

I'm not the same girl today because of that disease

And don't know what to do

Now I Can't stop eating

And I'm still undry after

My days R now about eating , cheking my body , be frustared because what the mirror show me isn't what I Want it to show me

And I've lost a lot of friend becaise of that

 

 

 

The best advice I Can give you girls

Do something and accept help

'cause It can destroye you

 

 

 Well for the past year I have lost around 40 pounds. But please dont starve yourself. It is not a good thing to do. What has helped me is this saying. "You are with yourself everyday. You know what your flaws are. But other people dont see that."

 

Dont worry about your weight that much. As long as you feel healthy it is okay.

 Well for the past year I have lost around 40 pounds. But please dont starve yourself. It is not a good thing to do. What has helped me is this saying. "You are with yourself everyday. You know what your flaws are. But other people dont see that."

 

Dont worry about your weight that much. As long as you feel healthy it is okay.

Hello,

 

I have anorexia nervosa for about 3/4 years now.

It has always been a part of my life, because in the old days I was a very bad eater too. I had a lot of fights with my father because I didn't ate very well. It wasn't enough.

 

Since the age of 14 I started dieting. I had a average weight, just normal, but  I felt fat and insecure about anything 'bout myself.

Now I am almost 18 and the anorexia is very strong at this moment.

I am very underweighted, but I don't understand, because I feel so fat and .... :( I know it's a symptom of the disease but i just don't get it.

I have been hospitalized for my anorexia several times.

First in a special clinic for eating disorders. I've been there for 9 months, i had to go because I was there for a long time and i didn't gain in weight.

I had a gastro nastic tube for three times, but when I gained in weight i was begging by my psychiatrist to stop the gasto nastic tube. He agreed, after long begging.

 

After this clinic I went to the hospital twice. My condition was very bad.
After that, I went to the clinic again..for about two months. It didn't really work, I lost 8 pounds there.

This clinic wasn't very strict and they just let you go.

it was more like, your problem, you have to eat, if you don't, well that's fine, but you're only ruining your own life, not mine.

 

Now I am desperate.

I live in the Netherlands and I've heard that the clinics aren't very good in the Nerherlands for eating disorders, when you compare them with clinics in America and England.

This week I have to go to the psychologist again and when I lost weight or when i stay at this weight, they're going to force me to go to a clinic.

I just don't know what to do anymore.. :(
I can't gain in weight, because i'm so afraid. I do eat but not enough. Now I am just at home, sometimes I do work 3 hours a day which is actually too hard because my condtiion is very bad..

They're saying that I am going to die when we don't do anything now. They are all really concerned, but it's like I'm just watching myself dying. Or i just don't know it..don't wanna know it.

 

My question is , the clinics for anorexia nervosa, in america, do they have good results? Any recommend?

I've seen on the internet a mando meter clinic in San Diego. It seems to be very good because they also give a lot of individual therapy. That's what I need.

 

You don't just go to America ..but it's my life. If i can't get better here, i have to go to a foreign country. I am so afraid to die and I just don't know what to do..

Do you have experience with clinincs in america, also for people from another country?

 

I hope you can help me.

Thank you for reading my story. :)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hailee,

My sister died from her eating disorder.  If you wait till you are "ready" it will be a long time, if ever.  The question is do you want a life or do you want your life to be your eating disorder?

Deb

My name is kate and I am a 15 year old girl in highschool.Before I hit highschool my weight was always important but not that important I was happy with myself.It seemed about 2 years back I actually started feeling upset and I am now a sophomore in highschool and have developed eating disorders.My parents and friends say Im losing weight and say in insane for thinking im fat but I cant look at my body without wanting to cry. . .sometimes I want to hurt myself for my self image.Anorexia is just hitting off but I cant seem to stay not eating for very long so I end up eating and I feel like I want to die when I eat.Im bulimic and aout 80% of what I eat doesnt stay in my.Im not skinny and I dont have a flat tummy, thats what I want though and I know if I dont get help I will do anything to myself to get there.Ive asked my parents to help,begged but they dont see the problem in me.I just want to lose weight, so despratly and I dont know what to do, I dont eat for days then when I try and tell myself I dont care and I do eat I want to die.please help me.I know I dont have a bad case but Im depressed and its only getting worse.

I'm currently pregnant with my second child. I've had an eating disorder since I was 14-years old. I'm now 28. For some reason I'm having a hard time getting better. All I think about is my eating disorder, thinness, and not wanting to gain any weight. I've gained some during the pregnancy and I'm 21-weeks, now. I 'm trying hard to stay healthy and eat, but it's hard. I just feel so fat, most of the time. I know I need to eat for the health of my baby. I'm also scared that I'll hit rock bottom with my eating disorder once the baby arrives. Has anyone ever gone through this? Is there any advice out there that could help end this once and for all?

since the age of 13 until now:age:31...ive been battling with anorexia......
when i was pregnant,i managed the way to eat like any other woman would do....because the important part is YOUR BABY.....its not because WE have problems of the sort that we can hurt our futur children because they had a lack of vitamines ect....ect.....so,during my 2 pregnancys,i was doing fine....yes,i got weight....but i was happy!!!!!!!!! for my child!!!!!!!!!!!! then when i gave birth.....thats when everything started again....i stopped eating.....if i was,i would make myself purge........i lost my weight within 1 month.....and continued to do what i wasint supposed too......its been only 4 months now that i dont purge myself....its so hard........now i have serious health issues because of that! when we suffer of anorexia,we are killing our body slowly but surely....
you,when you give birth well.....loose your weight a little more normally....dont wait to have all kinds of conditions because of your anorexia....your children need their MAMA.....they love you:)

Thank you so much for sharing to me that I'm not the only one out there that is struggling through this issue and for the encouraging words. Now I'm battling the urge to purge after meals. It's hard. I wonder why is this going on now? I realized that due to the pregnancy giving me indigestion causes me to feel like purging after meals just to feel better. Of course, I still focus on the health of my baby and my 15-month child, that I am trying hard to stay healthy and eat and not purge after meals. It's been difficult and I'm trying hard as possible to stay healthy. I still feel like I'm going to hit rock bottom after the baby arrives and I'm scared. I know they need their momma. It's been hard dealing with this ED, I don't know what else to do. I feel like I'm getting weaker on trying to fight this disorder. I'm trying hard to keep fighting and move on, but it's so difficult. Anyways, thanks! Take care!

 you are not the only one.....and yes there are a lot more than the 2 of us !
you know what....you can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! beleive this or not.....you can really make it!
i will leave you my email address....i would love for you to write me back so,we can share more together.....if you want:)    here it is: jolyann6@yahoo.com
1 day at a time sweety....you can fight this.....ill even do it with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
talk to you soon and keep healthy for you and your lovely children!