Topic : Bulimia

Hi, I'm 16 years old and i think i may be Bulimic. it started about 3 monthes ago, during the exam break. Well... when i think about it, it started way sooner. I have been obsessed with eating disorders espesially bulimia for a few years now, i watch every show and read every website that tell me about the disorder. So when i first learned to stick my fingers down my throat and make myself throw up i was so happy. I feel so out of control with food, I eat when ever i can. My day from the time i wake up to the time i finally fall asleep revolves around food. I lay in bed at night thinking about what i'm going to eat tomorrow. So when i throw up i feel so much better, like i'm in control. But i'm not even sure i'm bulimic because i can sometimes go a whole week without making myself throw up... but in this past week i have made myslef throw up alot, I drank a hot chocolate and i couldn't help it, i had to throw up. I hide it by telling my mom i'm in the shower, and while the waters running i throw up so she can't hear. Last week i was taking care of my neighbours cat, and i would go into his bathroom and throw up my dinner. But... sometimes, it's like i forget, i forget about the callories i just ate, and i don't throw up, but then the next week i'm back at it, but the week after that i'm fine. So i'm just so confused. do i have an eating disorder or not!?

thank you and god bless.

Hi, I'm 16 years old and i think i may be Bulimic. it started about 3 monthes ago, during the exam break. Well... when i think about it, it started way sooner. I have been obsessed with eating disorders espesially bulimia for a few years now, i watch every show and read every website that tell me about the disorder. So when i first learned to stick my fingers down my throat and make myself throw up i was so happy. I feel so out of control with food, I eat when ever i can. My day from the time i wake up to the time i finally fall asleep revolves around food. I lay in bed at night thinking about what i'm going to eat tomorrow. So when i throw up i feel so much better, like i'm in control. But i'm not even sure i'm bulimic because i can sometimes go a whole week without making myself throw up... but in this past week i have made myslef throw up alot, I drank a hot chocolate and i couldn't help it, i had to throw up. I hide it by telling my mom i'm in the shower, and while the waters running i throw up so she can't hear. Last week i was taking care of my neighbours cat, and i would go into his bathroom and throw up my dinner. But... sometimes, it's like i forget, i forget about the callories i just ate, and i don't throw up, but then the next week i'm back at it, but the week after that i'm fine. So i'm just so confused. do i have an eating disorder or not!?

thank you and god bless.

Hi, I just signed up on the forum. I have never seeked any sort of help with Bulimia before, but I realize it's a real problem and it's beginning to hurt my body. I've just begun over the last 6 months, before then I had a real problem counting calories. About a year ago I was on a 700 calorie diet, until I got too lathargic to function and I began to exercise excessively. I run about 6-7 miles three days a week, and in between then I do cardio and weights. It used to be I'd just purge a little, but now it's binging on sweets and immediately purging. I've went from about 125 lbs (my healthy weight) and now i'm about 97 lbs. There is only one person in my life that knows, but I get comments on my weight all the time. The hardest thing is when my family tells me "you just need to gain weight". Since high school I've had a serious problem with my self confidence, and I was always battling with losing weight. I've never been OVERweight, but I can never see my body the way others do.

I know you all have ready probably a million 'blah' stories and have helped many people, and mine is miniscule in comparison. I just want to stop binging - I do eat healthy during the day, it's the night binging that is the problem. I know 97 is not healthy, but who wants to gain weight??? I dont' know, if anyone has some good advice please let me know. I've been searching for help, I just want to not care anymore about my weight and enjoy food! I'm tired of specially ordering foods at restaurants, not being able to enjoy my meals like everyone else. Or going to the other extreme of eating behind everyones back and then purging it out.