Topic : Bulimia

College was by far my hardest time of my ED.  IF you want to talk or want me to listen at all just let me know.  Trust me, I've been through that scene.  I'd be happy to talk about my experiences if you want me to but don't want to babble outside your comfort zone and trigger you.  Just let me know ur boundaries or if you want to talk! 

Lyndsie 

Sorry honey about the delay in replying to you; got this system sorted out finally as you will have 'read', thanks to the 'dr phil tech. team'. 

I guess you start off by telling your hubby about it...............make no mistake, it won't be easy, for either of you, but if he loves you and you trust him then somehow, some way, he'll handle it...he may not understand it but he will be there for you......mine went through the same reaction....he had no idea and it was a complete shock to him to find it out, but although he doesn't understand it all, he's trying and he's there for me, even if it's just to talk....so do it.....tell him! 

With regards to ' therapy', someone sent me this web addy  www.anred.com , it's worth checking out and, if memory serves me correctly, there is some information re. ' free therapy ' available; also try this one www.edreferral.com . 

Can I ask you if you take vitamin and mineral supplements???? If you don't, might I suggest you look into it, as it will at least stop your hair from falling out and will help your skin recover plus drink lots of water to help flush out the toxins and keep you hydrated, it may also help curb the ' urges' when they start..............but I guess the best thing to do is go see your GP or Practise nurse first........we've all got to start somewhere and they are the right ones for this. 

You're not alone in this honey and there is no need for you to feel alone............what I have found is that although I am a long way away from recovery, at least I'm on some sort of path and that's sometimes better than nothing........come and talk whenever you need......if you need an 'ear', I'm a good listener. 

regards 

maureen 

       I just turned 43.   My bulimia started when I first went to college.   Diane 

My name is Lindsay and I am 21 years old.  

I have been bulimic for a year and a half now, and when I see all these girls talking about being bulimic for 10 years or more, I feel like I am not in any real danger. I went from 152 lbs to 120 now and I am 5'4''. I look a lot thinner than I was but I do not look like a skeleton. That makes me think that I am not in danger. I purge every single day, all of the time, alwayas, becasue I feel like bulimia is my one and only best friend. I take diet pills with ephedra, and I eat as little as possible, or I binge purposley with the intent to purge right after. When I see the 80 pound girls that are annorexic, I am jelouse. That is a horrible way to feel, but I can't help it. I want to be 105 lbs, and then I feel like I will be happy. I have a husband who is very controlling, and he hates me for my disorder, but it is the only thing that I can control in my life. Am I the only one who is secretley jelouse of these super thin girls that are sick? I feel like a terrible person for being jelouse of their bones sticking out, but I can't help it. Is there anyone out there who can talk to me? Anyone at all? 

Lindsay,  

Honey, this ain't no club with a minimum membership.................This is a real illness and it doesn't matter if you have been Bulimic for one month, one year or 10 years etc..........you are in danger because each of us has an individual body rhythm and each of us responds differently to situations that are bad for us........if you will excuse the way I am about to put this, but you could  ' wake  up dead ' tomorrow just as easily as any of us who have suffered from this for years..........and especially seeing you are taking diet pills with ephedra..... ( I thought they banned that stuff in the US ?? ) so please, change that thinking !! 

Lindsay, do you really want to look like a bag of bones???????  

I can understand you not wanting to be fat, but bones are definately not sexy !!!!!!! How do I know ?? Perhaps I should send you a picture of myself at the moment....I am 5' 4" and 105 lbs and I keep dropping because this has got such a bad grip on me.....and I'm twice your age!!! 

Do you want to see what you will look like in twenty one years time.............that is if you live that long !! 

Look, I'm probably the last person to give advice on this, but it has nearly ruined my life.....and the side effects, and by that I mean 3 suicide attempts, almost did end it so there is nothing glamourous about this illness at all. 

Lindsay, as soon as you have read this, when 9am next rolls around, pick up the phone and call your GP or Local Health Centre......................but get help NOW !!!  ( because tomorrow may not come for you...) 

In the meantime there's always an ear, here, to listen to you whenever you want. 

Take care honey, 

regards 

maureen 

im 15...and if i could go back to when i was thirteen i would have chosen not to care so much what people think of me and my weight. (140 , 5'3")  i really didnt think it would be this bad...and i was too young to realize that kind of thing turns into a mental illness. welll..i just tivo'd dr phil. and i gota go watch it.  

i love dr phil. he's the man. 

sooooo sorry it has been so long!!  I have wanted to come on but have not been able to well I got on the computer but I was so busy trying t do other things I just kept not coming in here.   

I am sooo proud of you for reaching out for help and I trust things will be better with the next theripist!!! 

Today my small group at here went out to eat and it was really hard for me.  I have not been giving in to skipping meals and all but there are times I know I have limited meals.  I think I look like I have gained so much weight and I want to lose weight but I have to remember to "live by faith not by sight" 

I know I thought I was never going to get better I was way extreamly super de duper scared!!!!  I remember just before I started to eat I could hardly hold myself up and my body is still trying to fight to get back to total health and strength. 

oooooooooooo Thank you soooooo much!!!!!! 

I haven't really read through to catch up but I am glad you are here.  I struggled from the time I was just about 13 until a little over two weeks before I came to college.  Since I have been here there has been something wrong with me physically the whole time if not one thing another it is crazy!!!  I know that my body is trying to heal in so many ways.  not even 3 weeks before I came to school I could hardly hold myself up and then I came to school and joined the volleyball team.  I had to give it up though.  I was on road trips for the games and I would go in the bathroom and cry everytime after I ate.  I knew I could't live like that and that if I did there was a good chance I would have gave in.  Sometimes when my room mate isin the shower or I know she is going to be out of the room for a bit I just cry and pray.  Today I went out to eat chinese food with my small group and it was so very hard.  I was glad to have the time there but well yeah I know you understand what I mean.  I am glad you are here!!!!!