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November 1, 2005, 2:59 pm PST

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I was just wondering if there really is a chance of beating this. I am 24 and have been suffering from both bulimia and anorexia since I was 14. I have no control. No one seems to be able to help. I feel so helpless and don't know what to do. I have myself for being this way. But I can't imagine gaining a single pound.

I think there's always a chance at beating this, although I think with each year that passes, the harder it gets. I've read that after 5 years, it's considered chronic and after 10, the likelihood of recovery isn't that high, but people have recovered. I think after years of this, your desire to get better has to be so strong and even then sometimes it's not enough. With me, it's been almost 11 years and although my eating disorders have destroyed my life, it has also been my best friend (as sick as that sounds). There are days when I hate everything about it and there are some days when I'd defend it 'till the end. My eating disorder has become my comfort zone and basically a way of life for me. I've been in treatment, but my desire to get better was only half there so of course, I relapsed. It is my belief that food can be an addiction and a drug like any other drug or alcohol. I know that I am addicted to food, unfortunately, you have to eat so it's harder to overcome I think than drugs or alcohol since you can (eventually) abstain from them. There's always hope though. Things can be overcome. It's a daily struggle and I think you just have to take it one day at a time, one meal at a time.

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November 1, 2005, 3:05 pm PST

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I think there's always a chance at beating this, although I think with each year that passes, the harder it gets. I've read that after 5 years, it's considered chronic and after 10, the likelihood of recovery isn't that high, but people have recovered. I think after years of this, your desire to get better has to be so strong and even then sometimes it's not enough. With me, it's been almost 11 years and although my eating disorders have destroyed my life, it has also been my best friend (as sick as that sounds). There are days when I hate everything about it and there are some days when I'd defend it 'till the end. My eating disorder has become my comfort zone and basically a way of life for me. I've been in treatment, but my desire to get better was only half there so of course, I relapsed. It is my belief that food can be an addiction and a drug like any other drug or alcohol. I know that I am addicted to food, unfortunately, you have to eat so it's harder to overcome I think than drugs or alcohol since you can (eventually) abstain from them. There's always hope though. Things can be overcome. It's a daily struggle and I think you just have to take it one day at a time, one meal at a time.

do you ever feel like you are like 2 people or something........ i mean like you oooooi don't know how to say it another way.....

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November 2, 2005, 3:47 pm PST

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do you ever feel like you are like 2 people or something........ i mean like you oooooi don't know how to say it another way.....

i always feel like 2 people, one person i hate the other i hate more.. never fail to lose that battle!!!

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November 2, 2005, 3:58 pm PST

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i always feel like 2 people, one person i hate the other i hate more.. never fail to lose that battle!!!

me too!! i want to scream.... i am craving chocolate and for some reason i can't stay away from it...... i went trick or treating for fun and thought i can keep myself from eating this but i keep eating it.... grrrrrr!!! I am so frustrated...... i hate food!!!

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November 3, 2005, 8:37 am PST

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me too!! i want to scream.... i am craving chocolate and for some reason i can't stay away from it...... i went trick or treating for fun and thought i can keep myself from eating this but i keep eating it.... grrrrrr!!! I am so frustrated...... i hate food!!!

I competely understand. Some days I feel like such a loser for being this way and other days I feel empowered to have such control. It gives me a high almost. It's a realise of all my bottled up emotions. And when things get bad it's exactly what I turn too. I can't even begin to tell you the excuses I've made to be alone so that I can do it. It's horrible. And I'm not proud of it. But I don't know what to do. I just want someone to help me.

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November 3, 2005, 8:41 am PST

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I competely understand. Some days I feel like such a loser for being this way and other days I feel empowered to have such control. It gives me a high almost. It's a realise of all my bottled up emotions. And when things get bad it's exactly what I turn too. I can't even begin to tell you the excuses I've made to be alone so that I can do it. It's horrible. And I'm not proud of it. But I don't know what to do. I just want someone to help me.

yeah that's how it goes......... sometimes it's like i just love iit and sometimes i am like this is horrible...... today i have a migrain and i am about to have to go to chapel...... i keep thinking this morning i am not going to eat at all, not even eat and throw up but just not eat......... i really don't want to...... I am not proud of it either but sometimes i do get this thought in my head that makes feel like i am proud of it but really i am not..

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November 4, 2005, 12:29 pm PST

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hey guys

well i ordered this book from chapter online.. its called "the overcomming bulimia workbook" an di have not started yet, but i was looking through it and it looks like something that could and can help me out alot... i will let yahs know how it comes along and if it helps me out at alll... it is more then just reading it how activities and u have to write down when u binge and why u felt that way to eat and then purge.. so honestly i think it could help u figure out some answers, dont you think? Anyways i will let yah know how it comes along and what it is telling me and having me do.. talk to yah all later, hope you are all doing ok! im not im sometimes 2 times a day these days! not normal for me... but what is normal

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November 4, 2005, 12:38 pm PST

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hey guys

well i ordered this book from chapter online.. its called "the overcomming bulimia workbook" an di have not started yet, but i was looking through it and it looks like something that could and can help me out alot... i will let yahs know how it comes along and if it helps me out at alll... it is more then just reading it how activities and u have to write down when u binge and why u felt that way to eat and then purge.. so honestly i think it could help u figure out some answers, dont you think? Anyways i will let yah know how it comes along and what it is telling me and having me do.. talk to yah all later, hope you are all doing ok! im not im sometimes 2 times a day these days! not normal for me... but what is normal

i think it may just be a big help to you..... it coould be hard but it will be worth it...... good luck!! I am proud of you!!!

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November 5, 2005, 10:58 am PST

We all share this pain but look at this song. I posted it somewhere else but thought i should post it here for all of you to see and then I will post another song also!!!

The first song is the one that i already posted somewhere and the other is one well you'll see.... they are both on the same CD.

This is a song by my fav group Superchick...... actually i don't know if them or Barlow girl are my fav

"The lights go aut all around me/ One last cadle to keep out the night/ And then the darkness surrounds me/ I know I'm alive/ But I feel like I died// And all that's left is to accet that it's over/ My dreams ran like sand through the fist that I made/ I try to keep warm but I just grow colder/ I feel like I'm sliping away//After all this has passed/ I still will remain/ After I've cried my last/ there'll be beauty from pain/ Though it won't be today/ Someday I'll hope again/ And there'll be beauty from pain/ You will bring beauty from the pain// My whole world is the pain inside me/ The best I can do is just get throught the day/ When life before is only a memore/ I wonder why God lets me walk through this place// Althought I can't understand why this happened/ I know thta I will when I look back someday/ And see how You/ve brought beauty from ashes/ And made me as gold purified through the flames// Here I am at the end of me/ Trying to hold on to what I can't see/ I forgot how to hope/ This nights been so long/ I cling to your promise there will be a dawn"

"It's what we trust but don't yet see that is going to keep us going" 2 Corinthians 5:7

the name of this song is Courage

"I told another lie today/ And I goth through this day/ No one saw through my games// I know the right words to say/ Like "I don't feel well"/ "I ate before I came"// Then someone tells me how good I look/ And for a moment/ For a moment I am happy// But when I'm alone/ No one hears me cry// I need you to know/ I'm not through the night/ Some day I'm still fighting to walk towards the light/ I need you to know/ That we'll be ok/ Together we can make it through another day// I don't know the first time I felf unbeautiful/ The day I chose not to eat/ What I do know is how I changed my life forever/ I know I should know better// But there are days when I'm not ok/ And I need your help/ So I'm letting go// You should know you're not on your own/ These secret walls that keep us alone/ I don't know when but what I know now/ Together we'll make it through somehow/ Together we'll make it through somehow"

you know this song only starts to say how it is it doesn't even come close to totally saying it but I thought I would share it with you!!

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November 6, 2005, 12:12 pm PST

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I competely understand. Some days I feel like such a loser for being this way and other days I feel empowered to have such control. It gives me a high almost. It's a realise of all my bottled up emotions. And when things get bad it's exactly what I turn too. I can't even begin to tell you the excuses I've made to be alone so that I can do it. It's horrible. And I'm not proud of it. But I don't know what to do. I just want someone to help me.

hi!

first off, i have no experience nor any qualifications with eating disorders, but i read in an article that you have to convince yourself that you are beautiful to beat the disease. the girl in the article was in really deep and nothing seemed to help. but one day her nurse at the treatment center told her to look into the mirror every day and repeat to herself over and over again "i am beautiful because god made me." she did as she was told even though she didn't believe it herself. but after awhile, the words slowly sank in and she was able to fully recover.

i hope this helps.

good luck! =D

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