Topic : Bulimia

I am 24yrs old... Female
I have delt with Bulimia for the last 4years.
I have always been overweight and I have tried exercising and diet and nothing seemed to help. I tried to be anorexic but didn't have the self control and couldn't hide it from my family. Being bulimic was sooooooooo much easyer and combined with exercise I could still be "part of the group" but not have to worry about wieght gain because of my slow metabolism... I went from 170lbs to only 130lbs (in about 8months)... Still another 10lbs to go before I was my "ideal" weight. 
I started going to a pentacostal church near me and that was when I realized I had a problem and needed to deal with this...It was not what God wanted me to be doing.. He loved me too much to have this happen. It took me another 2 years, very supportive friend/sister in law, a huge amount of prayer (and a bad case of bronchitis) before I was able to get a foot up on the step of recovery..    

I am now 5'4 and 150 lbs... It is still sooooooo hard to deal with. My body and my weight is an obsession... I have been "clean" for about 1yr...unfortunately there have been times when I "slip"... but I am trusting God to get me through this... He has put in my path friends and websites like this to help me through...  
I just want to send this out to all who feel like there is no help and they are at their wits end... I have sat by my bed crying feeling like there was nowhere to turn and there was only darkness ahead with no out... TRUST ME!!! There is a light at the end of the tunell... don't give up... Please... there is a better way
 

I have been there where you are now...
You feel as if there is nowhere else to turn as if no one would understand...
Just please keep remembering Gods promisses... He will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you...
He has a plan for you...
This may sound like a bunch of blah blah blah..... but I am not saying this like it has been years before and I am all better....
Just last night I sat at my church crying over the exact same thing you wrote.
A friend of mine just kept reminding me that God thinks I'm beautiful and that this will end... Just put your faith and trust in God 

oh you know what.... sometimes when people on here talk about God i am not really sure they know what having a relationship with God is really about..... i mean since so many people say God Bless or I will be praying or somethiing and well yeah........  you know what though even all the way over here I can since your sincere in your love for God and his love for you........  God has great plans for you and I am not jjust saying that... you have a strong powerful spirit and I can since it.... you may not see it but oh it is there!!!  wow......  i just am going to do some praying for you and see what God has to say or do!!!   

doe you ever feel horrible or get upset because you know these thiings about God and what he says abouut you and stilll you find yourself stuck?  i am so glad you have came to join!!!   

oh by the way my name hisjewel came from a prayer i had prayed the day i joined the site... i was asking God to give me a name something special or tell me something he saw about me and tdhat is what he said so when i had to do a user name i choose hisjewel  His jewel!!  one day i will be able to see that the way he sees it i hope!!! 

Good morning and welcome everyone, 

Bulimia is sometimes easier then dieting. i did it last nite. had my slim fast then purged dinner after my husband left. i went from  size 18 to size 8. I still have about 15 pounds to go. I do it becasue i can control when i do it. and nothing in my life have i been able to control. i wish i could stop but i think i am addictied to it now. Any way i still feel guilty when i do it.  

I belive that If i put trust in God he will sustain and protect me. But then he has given us all intelligence to use out mental powers to figure things out. But with his help thru prayer and studing the Bible. I believe that whole heartedly.  

Hope all are doing good today.  

blaze  

I wasn't a christian when I first became "bulimic"... I knew that God was there... I had him as my personal savior... but that was it....
I felt so condemed when I became a christian and had this "addiction"
I thought I was alone... That no one would understand and that I was the only "Christian Bulimic"  

I am still trying sooooo hard to stay strong... but to see that I am not alone... having Jesus as my personal savior but to still have a problem... To know in my head how much God loves me... but to still have no control and hurt myself like this...
God has sustained me... but I will say this... It is/has not been an easy battle...
Thank-You soooo much for your kind words HISJEWEL. You are definately a kind spirit and allthough I've never met you.... I feel like I know you... Thank-you again... You honestly don't know how much your words have helped me... Gave me a little more strength.
 

yeah it can be hard sometimes to think about the "Christian Buliimic" but then I thought well God would have excepted me just like that he says in his word, "come just as you are"  that means no matter what you struggle with, no matter how unworthy you feel, no matter what come and I will love you, i will give you grace, i will forgive you......  forgiveness and grace arre right that together but God's love is the core of it all!!  then i know when i feel alone i am not really alone......  hmmm yeah.....  God can use us all even in our struggles..........  God even in the bible uses the weakd..... even when we think i am so unworthy why do you love me, i don't love me he can still use us...........  He sees all the good we can't see.......