Topic : Bulimia

a lot of times when we get home there are things there we don't have away from home and unconsiously our sences since or recall that and it can affect our mood......  there is a reason for it and we can pay attention to our sences and say hmmmmmm what is it that crosses my mind as i walk through the door.....  what is it that i may not want to see........  there are many questions we could probley ask ourselves!!!  I know you can do this and you do have a purpose for your life and i know it is amazing!!!!!  Pay attention to the things yout hink about yourself or say about yourself what are they are they negitive sure they seem to be well you need to change those thing to not speek the bad out but affirm yourself.......  i know that is super hard i had the hardest time but in the last week and 3 days i am learning to and it helps soooooooo much!!!!!!  you know you can drink wine and all that to make you relax but those are real ways to relax well maybe a glass of wine but not a lot of it......   

  

it took me a long time to get to where i am when i first came on here i was doing horrible.....  i wanted to disappear, i felt so alone, i hated myself and so many other things.....  i sometimes wanted to conquir this and sometimes i didn't and well i think more of me didn't want to do it i was scared to......  i did it though i looked in the mirror and talked you myself!!!  People say so many things to us in our lives and so many things happen and we start to do what others have to ourselves really much worse but there is the little girl in us that says please see me i hurt and i'm scared and she wants us to talk to her and tell her we are sorry and that we will be there for her!!!  it may sound silly but it is true!!!! 

  

one day you will be glad that taking those pills didn't work!!!! 

  

  

smiles jewels 

Better mood today..........just got home from work, and have got a fair bit of study to do before tomorrow so that's keeping my mind occupied at least. Have an early start....7am....ow!! and I don't finish until 8pm tomorrow night....thank god I have Thurs and Fri off...gonna' need it...... 

Do have a small problem.....we've been invited out to dinner on Thurs with friends, ptnr really wants to go but I don't, for obvious reasons, and I don't know what to do 'cause if I say I won't go it's gonna' cause an arguement and I don't want that at the moment, don't think I can handle it,.....so what do I do?????????????? 

 Buffy, Jewel, got any ideas you two??????????? 

I need a brainstorm a.s.a.p please. 

Ah well...better  hit the books......will be in bed before midnight I hope...! 

  

take care you two 

  

maureen 

Hey nice to meet you! Umm if it were me w/ the friend issue i wouldn't go if i didn't wanna. So anyway how are you? Well i would stay and type but i got to go to band practice hope to hear from you soon!! ~Buffy~

 Hey! How are you? I am doing much much better today!! Im happy don't know why but im happy!! I hope everything is going good for you. I would love to stay and type but i got to go to band practice ttys bye ~Buffy~

that's why!!!  God does hear and answer prayers!!! 

  

i had such a busy day id din't have much time to eat LOL!!!  but i did eat some atleast lol!!!  I was about to starve and it was so cool because it actually mattered taht i ate and I was thinking omg i want to eat so bad i am soooo hungry can't remember thinking that before atleast with out a but i am going to throw it up but this time that wasn't on the end of my thought!!! 

well usually i would say if you don't want to go then don't go but if food is the only reason.  also how the whole food things makes you not want to be around people as much.  Well, then i say you should go you have to start fighting it somewhere you have to step out of comfort zones sometime!!!  I know that it is soooooooo hard but i believe you can do it!!!  I have faced that so many times and had so many anxiety attacks from situations like that.  ooo but about it causing an argument if something like that causes an argument with a friend then well that friend needs to do a little thinking about some things because if they want to  argue because you don't want to do something well they have some issues they need to deal with.  we have a right to our own choices and if they have a problem with it oooo well it's your choice not theirs!!!!

Hey everybody:) I'm "new" I'm 16 years old and have been suffering from Bulimia Nervosa for two years now.I also suffer from trichotillomania(excessive hair pulling)  

Recently I have been referred[by my counselor] to an Out-Patient treatment program at the children's hospital .... even though I do not want to gain weight I know in the back of my mind it's the best thing for me. My only true worry is that I will begin to restrict, since I know I can not purge and that will lead to more problems.I understand that food is only an object, which is why I don't grasp the concept of it being what I use to cope with my emotions... I'm so confused 

 

Anyways, thanks for reading... 

 Hey yep i am doing ok well atleast as well as expected... lol I would love to type more but gtg ttys ~Buffy~  I am very glad to hear for you I will be on later Good Luck

hello i am hisjewel!!!  I am going to be gone for a bit but will be back and hope to have sometimes to talk with you!!!  I am so glad that you are doing what you are!!  I want you to know I am proud of you for taking a step to go into an out patient treatment program!!!  That is awesome!!!  That takes a very strong person!!  You know what don't think ahead and don't think behind think of now and what you know you need and about how you want your life!!!  If we get stuck on but what ifs then we stay stuck in this horrible addiction!!  I believe in you, you can do it!!!  If you feed you then it kills away this eating disorder that is trying to take over you but if you odn't then it feeds the eating disorder and it will grow and grow.    I know that you are confused but keep pushing forward i believe you can do it!!!  you can look it right in the face and say no more you don't belong to me and i don't belong to you!!!!  As you keep doing things it will slowly begin to process and make more since about the emotions just give it time!!!! 

  

hisjewel 

girl you can do it don't down yourself when you feel you've messed up.  don't lable yourself a failure because you made a bad choice!!!  don't let circumstances control you!!!  you can beat this!!!  as much as your trying to fight your emotions they are controling you and your reactions you have to fight them you have to look yourself in the face and incourage yourself you can do it!!!   

  

I won't be on for some days i leave in the morning for school cya!!!