Topic : Bulimia

isn't it so much better to stay numb.... ok so not really but i do a good job at staying numb.........  hmmmmm yeah..........  not the easiest week at all....  today is the only day i am in a half way decient mood..........   

hi there, 

just wanted to say that i've binged all day long...trown up only once...feeling full and sick...and most of all; depressed!!! 

don't knw how to stop all this :(  

my hope is gone... 

I am a 40 year old woman and I have been bulimic/anerexic - they call this bulimerexia??? 

You have to know you are not alone.  I am a dance teacher, a mother and I use to feel alone. I know what you are feeling.  I have two children and binged and purged for the first 4 months and after they were born didn't eat for 2 weeks until I lost all the weight.  I have been doing this to my body since the age of 15!  yes, 25 years!!!  I have lost 2 husbands over my obsession....not fun! 

I have been on medicine for obsesive behavior now for one year and I am totally under control for the first time ever...I hate that I wasted so much time in my life by obsessing over what I COULD eat, or when I eat where's the closest bathroom!  I still have a hard time eating in front of people, but I have stopped throwing up.  I have a very scratchy voice and sometimes it goes out completely,...I have an ulcer bc of it and I have ruined my gums and teeth.  I can tell you that there is a light at the end of the road - just one day at a time.  You need to start with a friend and I am her!!! 

I can talk to you and I am probably better than any phychologist bc they don't seem to know what we are about!>!>  Let me help you bc I am sure in my heart that is why GOD has let me live bc by all means of what I have done to myself, I should be DEAD!  Your body is not meant to go through the torture we put it through...so let's talk!!  and trust me THERE IS HOPE!! I PROMISE!!! I DON'T KNOW MEN, BUT I KNOW BULIMIA!!! 

Joh'anna 

Hi folks. OMG a male bulimic and nearly 40!!!!! Yes , sadly it does happen. I started at age 11 to cope with bowel habits in school and I am now 39. Therapy isn't worth a pinch of poo here. (Australia) I don't think  Dr Phil couldn't  tell me what is wrong. Our mental health system is crap.  

Any tips on beating bulimia, stress and anxiety? 

Thanks. 

Hi....You are not alone by any means.  I am also 39 but female and have had ED since age 12.  The same thing can be said of the mental health system here (US).  I was recently admitted as an in-patient at an EDU and my insurance company refused to cover more than FOUR days!!  Apparently since I am not on the verge of death or emaciated they take that as my not being "sick enough" to require in-patient  hospitalization.  They tried to fight for me to stay there because despite what the insurance company believed the doctors there all thought I needed in-patient.  But, sadly, the insurance company held firm and being I can't afford $1200 per day that was the end of that.   

Right now I am seeing a therapist and attending a 12-step support group for both bulimia and alcoholism.  I am also taking 60mg prozac daily which has helped me immensely.  I too have major anxiety issues as well as depression and OCD.  I would suggest above everything else that you join a 12-step program (do they have them in Australia?)  They have worked miracles and sometimes I think that is what I need to happen ...a MIRACLE!!  It is very, very hard to recover but I am trying to take it one day at a time.  Good luck with your recovery....hang in there and dont ever give up!  TAke care,  Karen. 

Just wanted to say hi. 

Have only been here a couple of times. I don´t know what to do any more. Every day is a battle and I feel so alone. No one knows how I´m feeling, no one knows that I´m sick and what I´m going through every day. I just want to disappear, to close my eyes and escape from everything. Have no one to talk to, no one to hold me. I watch the people around me and see their smiling faces. I smile back at them and pretend to be what they want me to be - happy, strong etc. 

I´m scared of my thoughts.I fight to keep my head above water, but I don´t know how long I can do that anymore. Please help me. 

I've posted on the anorexia message boards. But I have done it all. Read it might be of some help or email me at klp002@shsu.edu. 

Have a great day. God Bless! 

Katie P.