Topic : Obesity

Hi guyz!  I guess I am in the right place.  I can relate with so much of what you all are saying here.  I don't know if I am depressed or frustrated with my life.  I had a bypass and lost 140 pounds, then I have gained back 10 or 15 lbs of that back.  I am so frightened that I will balloon back up to 400 pounds again, I just don't know what to do or where to turn.  I had the surgery in 2001, and for the most part I have kept it off, but it is getting hard now.  I am hungry all the time.  Especially at night; I want to get up and eat.  It's like a pill for anxiety or something. 

I now have some health issues related to the surgery, I guess.  I have an incisional hernia that has been there from the beginning.  It started out pretty small, but now it is the size of my fist, and it seems to press on my diaphram or something.  Anyway I get some chest discomfort from it.  I thought one day I was having a heart attack.  I cannot go to the surgeon about this, because I cannot afford another bill to pay.  I am always in collection with doctors and hospitals because I cannot pay the portion that my medicare did not pay. But anyway, my life seems to be going down the tubes. 

I have been a part time student in college for 2 years, and now I just don't have the desire to go on. Part of it is the pain I am always in; but part I think is that I feel my education would do me no good anyway. No one would hire me.  I am still obese.  140 pound  loss is not enough to make me not obese. My doc wants me down to 200 pounds, as a desireable weight.  I can't seem to get there. I fail at everything. Every time I try to get my body under subjection, I fail at it.  I can't seem to walk far enough to do me any good.  I am always hungry, and crave things that I am not supposed to eat.  I will eat things that the surgery is supposed to block me from eating.  I am supposed to get sick if I eat sweets.  It doesn't happen unless I drink sugary drinks, which I don't.  I will get sick if I eat cake and ice cream both at the same time.  I wish I didn't desire these things.  I do well most of the time, not eating those things, but sometimes I do want a brownie or something. 

I went though so much to have this surgery.  I had hoped to lose so much more than 140 pounds.  My picture comes on my profile, and I don't think I look too bad, when I look at it.  But I don't see myself that way.  I look 400 pounds to myself when I look in the mirror.  Especially when I don't have clothes on. I really try not to hate myself..but sometimes I lthink I still do. I am in a viscious cycle and I don't know what to do to get out of it. 

I feel like I need a psychiatrist or something, but I just can't handle anymore bills.  If anyone feels like I do, please write me. 

Thanks, 

Sally 

hi, this is my first time posting.  does anyone else feel like since they are overweight that they don't have to worry about men looking at you and talking to you.  i am married, and my dh is always wanting me to loose weight.  also, i feel safer when i go out because i don't think anyone would try to abduct me because i look like i can kick some serious booty!   i use to be bulemic and anorexic but haven't been since the summer of 99 when i ended up in the hospital due to severe dehydration.  i started gaining weight after my 1st miscarriage, i've had 4 and no kids YET.  i just want to know if anyone can relate to what i'm saying.  thanks so much for taking the time to read this. 

ellen 

I have been trying to do Dr. Phil's The Ultimate Weight Solution since he first started it. I’m starting to think there is no hope for me. If I could I would go into an inpatient recovery center because I don‘t think Dr. Phil's (or any other) plan will work for me. I would like to chat with someone about this. Miss K 

Hiya Guys!!  

Things have been interesting since my last post. Friday I was getting ready for a meeting and as I was sitting and putting my makeup on I began to cry. I just looked at myself...well, I tried to but I couldnt see past the fat.At that moment, I made a decision. I picked up the phone and called Over Eaters Anonymous. I have been to 3 meeting so far and I have only found a handful of people with Night Eating Syndrome but the ones I have met have been awesome. It is the best support I have ever had. The thing is that these people understand. They can even find it within themselves to laugh about their disease. I never realized that compulsive over eating was a true disease.  

Someone in the group shared something with me that has been life changing already. They told me that there has been research done that states that there is a genetic link between obesity and the hormone leptin and for those with Night eating syndrome there are problems with producing Melatonin. Well, you know I went straight to the doctor to see if this is valid. I started taking melatonin and hormones 4 days ago and I have lost 6 pounds. Of course, I have also been trying to practice abstinence and a food plan given to me by the people in OA.  

The hardest part for me has been eating 3 meals a day. I have always been anorexic during the day and then I compulsively over eat at night. It has been hard and I have gotten up and eaten in the middle of the night BUT instead of a 5 course meal I have a bowl of healthy cereal and when I wake up in the morning I dont hate myself. 

Anyway, I have a found a little hope today. My concern is how long I will be able to keep it up. Oh and the comment about the pantries. I actually put a pad lock on my fridge and put all the kids treats in a seperate cabinet with a lock. The problem was that I had the key!!! LOL  

Elyse 

do you like veggies?   Steamed veggies?  Artichokes are a great snack food.  Fruit changes you blood sugar for the worst and makes you crave more food!   How about veggies and soups?  Do you love sitting down on the couch with a magazine and sipping some hot tomato soup and eating artichokes or asparagus spears?   Potatoes, beets and corn must be limited, but most veggies are A-okay.  And meat.  Veggies and meat.  Grains with LOTS of fiber are good.  Sara Lee Heart Healthy bread that has 30% of your daily fiber is a great choice for carbs.  Have five ounces of dark chocolate if you want something sweet.  It's loaded with antioxidants.  Are you uptight?  Have a couple of glasses of red wine.  Sip and savor baby sip and savor!    

I was obese.  I do understand.  One of the keys is reading everything you can get your hands on and being kind to yourself and helping other people in their other plights!!!!!!!! 

The book "Foods that Harm and Foods that Heal" is an excellent book!