Quote From: lindaslawi wrote one letter already and i havent heard back. um not sure that neone is out there listenin. um fat um ugly n i don't know where to go from here. um sittin here all alone tonite after havin a few drinks n i don't exactly know if um comin or goin at this point. my father called me tonite and told me that he started drinkin again after hearin that if he ever took another drink ever that he may as well say good bye to his children. did that stop him? nooooo!!!! i am the youngest of eight children and daddy's baby at that and if he's gonna try and kill himself then i jus think there is jus no reason for me to stick around and watch. um no angel, believe me. but i don't wanna sit by and watch him kill himself. what do i do? please someone help..
Hello
Hope you still there. I have just recently joined this webite and came across your e-mail. My dad drinks too. My mom passed away 4 years ago from cancer and things went from bad to worse! My dad drank every day. I felt it was my resposibility to look after him, so I left my home and my fiance and moved in with my dad. Needless to say this did not help. He would threaten to kill himself and sit there with the gun in his hand. Time after time I would try talk him out of it. I never dealt with my own pain as I felt that I need to be strong for him. The only thing that kept me sane was the thought that my mom was with my brother and sister in heaven. My mom went through alot of pain in her life and she would no longer need to feel that pain. I thought I would die with out my mom - I could not imagiine taking another breath without her in my life.
That was my life 4 years ago.
Today ,I am back with my fiance and we have a beautiful baby girl - nearly 10 months old. She is the light of my dads life ( and ours) and I she keeps him going. Dont get me wrong - he still drinks nearly every day. Only thing is now he has a beautiful warm smile to come home to ( we are all staying with him now!)
I have still not dealt with the pain of losing my mom - I try no to think about it.. I am grateful for every day I have with my family. As "they" say what does not kill you makes you a stronger person!
What I do know is that alcohol only makes situations alot worse.