Quote From: glenn6187 Hello all,hope all is well with everyone.My daughter is now 13 and shes been cutting herslef latley.shes been in the phsch ward for about 2 months now and she just got done telling us thatshe had a guy stick a knife to her throat and god knows what else happened to her.she doesnt tell us everything,but shes been cutting herself alot and im worried cause when she gets out,will she dio it again.i am so mad cause she wont tell us who it was and i feel so helpless right now.I cried when she told us this.I guess it would be better if i didnt know cause i would do something i would regret..I just dont know what to do?My wife and i see her every single day.They put her on medication and i feel like shes a zombie and i just feel for her so much.I cried when she told us this horrific thing that happened to her.Its hurts me alot more that this happened to her cause of my own nightmare past and my anxiety is so out of control sometime,but my daughter needs me .She loves me so much.all i can do right now is just be there for her
Thank you for the replies about my daughter.I havent been on here lately,really busy.I saw my daughter tonight and we had such a good time.I sent her flowers,and she thought it was the most greatest thing.I brought up chinese food and it was just her and myself.Mom needed a night off and she goes saturdays.We see here every single night and every time i see her,i wanna cry.shes doing alot better,butshe still needs help.I really feel bad cause i know exactly what shes going through cause ive been there and done that.Im trying to get her to tell me who did that stuff to her,but she aint telling.I feel so helpless cause i wasnt there to protect her and help her and it kills me.My past life dosent help either.The other night,my wife almost caught me crying outside.Mybrothers birthday is comming up and i hope i can deal with it without letting it get to me.I alos really feel like crap cause they asked me if i ever were depressed and i told them that i have P.T.S.D.They really didnt ask why,they just told me that i could of giving my daughter a gene in her that makes her depressed and it could be herditary.They asked me if i see a therapist and i kinda got angry cause its not about me,its about my daughter.Im an adult,i know that i made some really bad choices in the past,but i faced my problems and i deal with it.yes,i do get depressed sometimes,but i handle it the right way now,not go off the wall,and nut out.I realize that what my brother did to me ,i cannot turn back time,I know hes dead forever and i do still try to deal with that he did did kill himself and i do feel guilty,but i regroup my thoughts and deal with it.
What i do try to figure out is that my brother has always been in my life dead or alive.He cost me over thirty years of my life ,now he caused my kids now that all comes back to what he did to me and that sucks.My daughter is only 13.It took her over 2 mothes to come out with what happened to her.It took me over 30 years and im just glad that she did.She doesnt deserve what shes going through cause of some weirdo.All my daughter wants is my wife and myself.I painted her finger nails and toes not too long ago and when i went home,i cried.I cried cause ive been doing her nails since shes been 2 years old and it kills me thats shes there.Im getting to the point where im going to pull her out of there,but #1,i cant and #2 she needs the help.She will be going to a place called sagamore,its a place where they do exstensive therapy and we cant see her for 2 weeks..why should she be going through this,its so not fair.All i want is for her to be home,thats all i want.THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME.
GLENN
