Topic : Overcoming Grief

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.  It may seem odd, but there are things you are saying that will someday turn into good things.  Your daughter has a bipolar disorder and I've known people with that condition.  It's very hard to live on an emotional rollercoaster and I could only imagine the difficulty your daughter had.  It was not you that failed.  You loved her very much, and she loved you too.   

Your other children are feeling the same pain as you, and being so young, they are probably looking for some answers, which will come, in time.  Love them and they will come back to you, perhaps as wiser, more understanding people.  Just love them, love yourself, go day by day, and I know you will endure this. 

I hope you stay on the message board for a while, as I think you're special.  I was told by a dr. that I am a survivor.  Life is full of difficulties and you will get through this.   

I am mad as hell I lost my son Mitchell october 5 2005 and he shouldnt have died. 

 I took my son in for a retean toncelectamy and tubes in his ears and on oct 1st 2005 and then i found him past away on the 5th i still cant beleave it i look around and hope to see ia face and i hear is giggle my kidsa are having a hard time with this too . mi son dylan has gone into a blaming himself . he  has been put in a hospital do to depressed and then was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. i have tryed to go after the dr and the hospital but i keep getting the same thing well if he would have died at the hospital then you could do something but because he died at home it my falt . how can it be my falt . my son Mitchell was downsyndrome and i asked the dr to keep him longer and he said ther was no reason to . night after night i sit and think what could i have dont doiferant why me i hate my self for letting this happen. i wish i new what to do how to get past this . i wish i could fing an atterney to handel this that had a back bone the ones here just keep turning me down . i want someone to be held resposable for my sons death . he was 9 years old and had no way to talk and tell me anythingwas wrong he couldnt tell me , i should have now there was something wrong why didnt i now. i call the dr and he called me back 3 days later and said that it wouldnt have made any diferants if he would have been in the hospital he would have died anyway there is nothing anyone could have done . this is wat i was told how rude.!!!   all i now is oi wont rest till someone pays for is death i will fight for my sons life now that it was taken way from him he should have had a long life and now he dont . 

 I miss you mitchell and i will keep you alive in my heart forever. when i look up to the ski i feel you kiss from the sun and i feel your tuch when it rains , i get a hug when the wind blows , but most of all i see you in my dreams. i keep going to and hope to make sure that no one eles goes through what i did over you . . .. i hate the man that took my son from me  i will never under stand