I was disillusioned I think.
I have always been heavy. At my heaviest I was 275 and at 5'2" that's a ton of weight to cart around.
Last year everything came to a head I was getting many health problems happening at once along with depression. I decided enough was enough --plus was single and wanted to date - being overweight forever dating was what it was. miserable.
I decided to have gastric bypass surgery June 30, 2008. To date I have lost about 100# I went from size 24 to 2-4 from 225# to 120# life is totally different in every way EXCEPT dating...
In clothes I look fantastic. I can suck everything in with tight underwear, stockings and support garments.
If I do wear shorts or forget to put on all the necessary underwear I hate my extra skin.
I have extra skin on my tummy, upper thighs and my breasts are totally deflated. I feel very unfeminine, ugly and like a deflated fat person. Insurance covers the one surgery but not others. I am happier and healthier in so many areas but frustrated and upset in other areas. I hate seeing myself naked. I'm terrified to become intimate with anyone or let any relationshhip get to that point out of fear. I know I am thinner i just want to see that person in the mirror. She needs to be tightened back up. I can't afford to do this but have researched it and have started saving. ANY help in this area would be totally appreciated so I can totally finish my tranformation.
I',m there weight wise and emotionally ready to finish this process..l. justneed to be there physically and I'm not.
Laurie