Topic : Lost All the Weight and Still Hate Your Body?

It's why I've become nearly afraid to even TRY to lose weight.  I know for a fact I'd still be ugly if I did.  I'd still have boobs that are two VERY different sizes, my smile still sucks because it's so crooked.  I've been at or near 200 lbs. for most of my adult life (47 the day after the date of this post), and I've never been truly thin a day in my life.  It wouldn't change a thing in my life, including my self-image, so why bother.

I am Yara. Jordanian born and raised in the United Arab Emirates. I am 28 years old. I have lived with a single parent (mother), who was a hostess for 20 years.

To make this short, I have suffered all my life from many things, abuse, acuse, hatred, everything you can imagine but most of all WEIGHT! I weighed about 90 kilograms (198 pounds) at the age of 10 and my height was about 145 centimeters tall. I stopped growing at the age of 15, where I became 151 centimeters tall. I was always made fun of, even from mother and family. I was called cow, fat, bear and all names you imagine. I was rejected from boys and girls at my age because I was fat and heavy.

I did eat like a cow! I ate about 10 times a day, big, gigantic meals! But when I got into the BOYS business, like being a real girl who men started to hit on, I began to search for ways to lose weight. I began by exercising and eating well, and that didn't last.

I exercised for hours non-stop and ate only boiled, raw and grilled food. i did lose somw weight, but wasn't happy. I reached about 80 to 75 kilograms when I first knew about pills. I ordered them from the States and used to take money from mother in order to get them. I then used pills, exercised, used laxatives, creams, gadgets and you just mention it!

I did eveything you can imagine, then the fashion of being Anorexic came and I did where I reached 154 pounds, and then got bored of all this deprivation. I began eating (binging) and then purging, I was Bulimic for years. I had an entire group of girls who were like me and we used the school's bathroom to do that. I then reached about 140 pounds and stayed that way for years and years.

But I was still fat and chubby. Boys liked me, I was funny, popular, smart in school and always helped others.

My mother tried many times to commit suicide, so whenever I felt bad, i would do the same thing, but never worked!

I had a lot in my life, but then decided to stop that. I ceased eating for 3 weeks, no food except smoke, water and coffee, when I reach 110 pounds and I was very happy, but got ill and anemic. Then I began to exercise again, then i gained muscle and got heavier. Then I got Bulimic again, and Anorexic and all that made me sick all the time.

You can say, my body was abused from pills, diets, Bulimia and Anorexia for about 15 years now. Recently, I joined Sparkpeople's diet where I started at 132 pounds and now I am 119 pounds.

I ate well, exercised constantly, but then I was still not satisfied, I feel fat and ugly. I have a wonderful finance'e since 8 years now and I never did tell him about my disorders. He is a bodybuilder and great athlete and sportsman and all women go nutts on him, but he loves only me and i feel good when I am around him, but I feel I am not upto his standard of beauty!

I am short, normal and chubby. He never complained about my figure and everyone including mother thinks I look great but not me. I see that fat, ugly, ignored, rejected and neglected 10 year old Yara in the mirror. My finance'e tells me how sexy and pretty I was, how he feels secured with me, how I am independent and smart and never criticises me and is jealous on me all the time and i swear I would never have a partner like him, although he has some high tempers!

I need help please! I stoped exercising since a month now because of Shingles on my thighs from using a sweat sauna suit and got rashed up, bad bones from too much exercise and I am literally always dizzy and drowzy.

I was kicked out from the Spark program that even broke my heart more. The coach said the I was not feeling well, and I needed therapy and we have nothing like that here in my country. All dieticians are fat or obese and psychologists are only into medication and money.

I need help please! I am fat, ugly and terrible. I do good things, take care of my 51 year old mother who went under surgery recently from hernia in the spine and always had psychological disturbances. I am lost, I am Bulimic again and I hate myself. Please help me... I need Dr.Phil to give me a chance to talk to him or at least send him a letter.... anyone out there please.. I wish I was just dead... I have a lot on my shoulders

Yara

I'm 25 and I changed my lifestyle about 10 months ago.  I've lost over 50 lbs and have about 25 more to go before I'll be to a good, healthy weight for my body type.  After 2 c-sections and 2 other medical-related abdominal surgeries, my stomach is losing fat, but sagging pretty badly and looking pretty gross.  My arms and legs sag too.  My breasts now hang down below my waist.  I'm having a lot of trouble staying focused on getting healthy because of my disgusting body.  My husband doesn't seem to mind, but I don't even want to get undressed in front of him anymore.  I find myself feeling worse about my body now than before, and I struggle to continue a healthy lifestyle. 

I changed my lifestyle mostly for my kids.  My parents are overweight, my grandparents too.  I just don't want my kids to go through the same thing.  I'm trying to focus on that to keep myself going.  It would be nice to feel better about my body.   I know that surgery to fix some parts of myself will be an option, but an expensive one.   I worry about how I will deal with all the scars.  I get down about the ones I have now.  But I try to think about the good feeling of jeans fitting me without trying to fit my sagging stomach down in them.  I dream about the day when I can wear a bathing suit without my stomach falling out of the bottom of it and run around on the beach with my kids.  That keeps me going.  Find your reason for losing weight.... if its just to look like a movie star, perhaps you should've been more realistic.  Only movie stars look like movie stars. 

hello my name is marisha

i am 22years old and have been dealing with weight isssues since i was a child ,

i weighed 220pounds when i was 16....now i weigh 140and i am 5foot 6....thats disgusting!

i lost the weight by starvation,laxitive abuse. i never binged and puged but it seems idea for me  to loose the weight i still have,my skin has sagged on my arms,legs,stomach,  and basically everwhere ..

i have been trying to loose this extra weight but havent seemed to been able to...i try to avoid the laxtives so my fince wont find out....i have been on and off starving myself since i was near 17, but just

started recently this year abusing laxitives.my mother was  a model when she was my age and she suffered from anorexia....the doctor asked me at a checkp this month if i was bulimic but i never have binged and purged i cant do it....my father also asked me if i was...it insulting to me...i knowi have weight issues but i know i am not bulimic....i love food and hate it! i count the calories of food i eat exercise till i drop but nothing seems to work for me......laxitives just keeps me the same weight and

the exercise makes no weight lose...i am so sick of myself......

i just wish i could be pretty and skinny like the girls my boyfriend looks at...he says im beautiful

but why would he.the way girls look and dress these days is hard to compete with.

thanks to anyone who listened you will be the first t know about this...

During my pregnancies I gained a lot of weight. I have not been able to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight of 125 (I am currently at 150). I have lost some weight but just can't seem to get rid of my baby flab belly. It is like jelly and is soooo gross! I am always embarrassed to have my husband see me naked because I just look disgusting! I have been considering a 'tummy tuck' but doubt I can afford it. I just want to be proud of my physical self image again!

Ok, I rather see you eat sushi then shrimp or turkey. Shrimp are scavengers. Were you now? Are you able to leave the house to walk, get some vitamin D ie Sun? Take is slow.