Topic : Ways to Exercise in the House

Hey MB !!!!

Wow you are working hard, 7 days, is no picnic !!! Sure makes a person appreciate home when you get there. Hopefully kids and hubby will pitch in. A new game for them too, mom working away from home. Give thought to a "chore schedule" and  maybe that will lighten the load.

It's got to be hard getting into a routine of leaving for work after a long time at home.

How big is the nursing home you work at ? The one that my mom was at for skilled nursing, was 70 residents.  

You have a way of working with children and horses.  There was this lady in a neighboring town that loved her horses. Well she started a riding school for disabled children. It mainly gave the children that had disabilities, a way to relax and just enjoy them themselves. It is quite successful too.

Keep us posted. Great job on losing the weight. Work and lose weight too. I'm sure the amount of calories you are consuming are different too. Just don't eat late  and go to bed  too soon, all the work you do will stack against you in weight loss.

You sound tired but happy, and I'm happy for you.  

Linda

Hey Marcia,

Coming out of a binge,,,,,,,,not easy for sure. What it is about those darn tapes in our head. This week I told myself, "mother will be at my sister's, time to hop on Eli everyday, and chalk a pound or two loss, you know that didn't happen !!! It's Thursday and darn I haven't got on Eli yet. It's this or that, just excuses.  And this wedding is this weekend, I so wanted to be in the 150's (like 159 in my book) well that didn't happen. The "laws of attraction" must be working for me in another way, let everything get in front of what I want to accomplish !!!! When they talk diet stuff on Oprah or Dr. Phil, I get a cup of ice cream everytime, and I swear it tastes better too !!!! I'm still hovering at 164, for some reason I know how to maintain that weight, just not an ounce less.   hehehehe.

Since my mom is not here these next two weeks, I  feel like a bird out of a cage !!!! She is doing pretty good now. But only able to stay with us, and not go back to being by herself.  Since she is feeling better, my sister took her to her house yesterday for an hour to just be at home. It's so hard to give up your home when you get a certain age. In her book "she thinks she'll be back in a couple weeks".

Well better go and water the flowers and grass, so dry here !!!!

Linda

I awoke today wondering about that ... I'm feeling that I'm just coming out of a long long pattern. That the overeating is simply me crashing and burning.  I already feel as if I'm picking myself up.  There's so many areas in my life I'm not beating myself up in. 

I'm reading this book A NEW EARTH with OPRAH and I finally put it down (started on my 2nd reading) and picked up the author's other book THE POWER OF NOW.  It really is helping me to understand the mantra:  WHAT I RESIST, PERSISTS.  That when I get the tapes going that I'M NOT DOING SOMETHING, I find myself getting really worse.  I've been binging since I actually started working and I know that it's about me facing me going back to work. I keep hearing myself say .. I want to work full-time .. but I want to be there for my family and friends too.  And the binging I'm experiencing is just me "reliving" how I once was.

And that means, I'm not actually experiencing a binge, I'm experiencing a RELAPSE and a RELAPSE is something old that I've not truly dealt with.  And now is the perfect time for me to do so. 

Does that make sense to you two?

Today is really going to be nice. It's a family day and my TO DO list went to hell.  But that's life isn't it!  I'm just so glad I'm able to be with everyone. We do it about 1-2 times a year.  Hopefully, my sister in Cuyahoga Falls will come up.

I worked in the yard yesterday and got some sun.  I'm going to finish the task today if it doesn't rain.  I'm picking up sticks from the trees so that I can mow my grass this week.

This weekend is really a nice ME TIME.  It's what I needed right now to work out what I'm feeling and experiencing.  I'm feeling a repeat of emotions and thoughts.  I've been calling it the NEXT STEP because once I allow myself to experience it, I find that I'm more peaceful and that I'm nicer to me as well.

Well Saturday I truly relaxed in front of the tv for quite some time. I of coarse did talk with my younger sister for over an hour about my Mom. I'm sure you all remember me saying she was coming for a visit in June. Well she cancelled it! Didn't even tell me first wrote it in an e-mail to my sisiter and then forwarded it on to me. When I replied and told her how sad I was she started to defend ,justify, and attack instead of comfort me. I have given it a break for a few days but will have to respond I can't alllow her to be hurtful and repress my anger anymore. Repressed anger has been a tool I have  used for years that just isn't working anymore.

At my job I have around 17 peoples rooms I clean. There are two other house keepers for the other two halls so maybe another 30 residents. There is room for more, some are two to a room. Drinking water at work is a challenge! I find myself choosing tea or coffee. So I'll have to work on remembering to drink my water.

Some how I need to get more consistant help from the kids. They will do chores if I ask sometimes I just don't ask. Glad to see ya'll are still here hang  in there!

MB

Sounds like you're finally setting into a pattern .. that's good!  TV allows you to detox .. and I know you'll be able to step up and let your mom know ... MOM WHEN YOU DID ______________, IT REALLY HURT ME.  Do you think she's afraid of your response?  I know that I had to acknowledge that I truly wasn't holding in my anger or resentment to my mom .. I was passive-agressive and sometimes, I did let things slip out when I was tired or hurt by her.  Like a kid though, I responded as if I were still a kid.

So have you begun to make a list of the type of chores you need to have done around the house that the kids can do for you?  It means taking the time to do it and that you may start feeling like you don't have the time; however, the time you spend thinking about it can just as easily have you begin figuring this out.

The relapse is nearly over. Now that I named the trigger as me going back to work and the emotions that go along with it, I'm going to spend today working on bringing light to this pain. It's just old stuff from my old job. This job is so totally different.  I get to work from home so I don't interact with anyone and everyone there is related in one way or another with someone else that it's more of a family-friendly business.

Today, it's wet and chilly.  Got my sweats on again!  Had my shorts on Fri & Sat!   Tomorrow, I'm heading over to Unique Thrift Store to buy me swimsuits.  It's their 1/2 off day so I want to pick up at least $10 worth of bathing suits .. in different sizes.  I'm looking for size 16, 14 and I'll pick up a couple of 12's too.  By mid-summer they won't be selling them or able to keep them on the racks.  So I figure I'll pick up as many as I can so I can have them on hand when I wear a swimsuit out. I just threw out 1 Friday. 

Hope everyone is doing okay.  I'm going to go upstairs and do free-weights now!

Well, my exercise this morning was chasing Zeke with a broom handle to let go of the squirrel that I now have in a cage in my closet. She just needs to rest before I let her go.  I'm not sure who would take care of her.  But I'm hoping she doesn't have any internal bleeding.  I want to move her to a safer cage after I take my shower.  I have her and the cage in the closet right now buried under a towel.

Anyway, today my sister is to join me at AQ. If she doesn't go, I'll go on my own.  I have plenty of time ... it's my latest "mantra" for me.  I'm finding that I'm telling myself all the time I DON'T HAVE TIME and yet when I sit down with my journal, I see I have plenty of it.  It amazes me how my thinking is so distorted.  Just like me losing weight thoughts.  I know that it took me a long time to ditch the I'M BAD mantra.  I'm not.  I'm doing the best I can at this moment and when I challenge my faulty thinking, the I'm BAD loses out all the time!  It's all about practicing and educating and accepting what I can't change. 

Learning to treat me like my very best friend has been a really good experience for me. It's actually exciting!