Quote From: marcia52Missy, I'm so glad you finally got on your elleptical and got your kids to hlep you out! Just think what next summer will be like ... you'll be able to play outside with them ... that's a really cool goal!
Remember that working on habits takes time ... for me, I learned that I had to keep picking myself up and practicing. Sometimes, I felt really blue and just wanted to give it all up. Then I said, NO! I'm tired of having these thoughts in my head! I'm tired of repeating the same old tired tapes. I dream of never having to "BE HERE" ... like exercise. Even though I'm not exercising the rest of the week at the gym, I know that on Monday, I'll be back. It's taken me 2+ years to be here.
It's so nice to be a FITNESS DIVA. That's what I tell myself for the last 3 years. Like Dr. Phil says, if you believe it, it becomes truth.
See if you can find a book on breaking your bad habit ... know that the bad habit has a pay off. LIFE STRATEGIES has a good chapter on what that means and exercises to help you work it out.
I do play alot with my kids, actually I think I play to much with them that they don't know how to play alone! I'm a very active personne.
I' m normaly fine, it's just that when my "time of month comes close, I'm a real mess. I can't think staight, eat like a bottomless pit, have no patience whatsoever, can't sleep, loose all sense!!!
As soon as it starts I'm fine. I think I will have to go see the doctor for that cause it's real hard to deal with.
I never belived in pms. When I was younger, my step mom would say, "you're starting soon heh, it shows" and I never belived her, but she was alway's right. It's just a couple of years ago that I started beliving in pms, I alway's wanted to leave my huband, yellled at my kids, nothing made sense, we alaway's fought, I found myself fat and ugly, never wanted to go outside, ect.... Until I started to read on it, and I started to understand myself in pms mode, now I just warn everybody in advance, and we don't fight anymore, and my kids are understanding and calm down!
In my non pms mode I'm this patiente, understanding, slim and beutifull persone! I'm trying to work on being better in pms mode and it's woking a bit, my husband and I don't fight, (that's mainly because he now understands I'm not doing it on purpose) I don't want to leave him, and I try my darndest not to be impatient! I really have to work on the eating!!!!!
I did go through a suacidal depression for a while, where I had no help from anyone, (when I actually called my dads wife crying for help, she actally had the nerve to tell my dad that I was bitchy that day, after she practacly hung up on me!!!)i actually walked to an overpass and climbed up, climed back down, went home crying, turned on the t.v. and there was dr.Phill talking about depression! And now, well, lets just say that if it weren't for that I would not be here! I went to see a psyco.... and that helped me more, and finally convinced my husband that we needed to go together, and that helped more!
Now I'm fine, well I think so! lol :0) It's just that in pms mode I need alot of help! and now, I'm not afraid of asking for it! And when I started writting with you, I was in pms mode and your words really helped me out!!
thanks you are a great insparation!!
P.s the bad habit is more of a dependence of something, that I have not done in 2 days now!!!!!(I'm actually a very strong persone, I used to smoke 1 pack a day and when I decided to quit, I did it in one day, cold turkey, that was seven years ago!)