Topic : True Love

Quote From: tristen0704

I honestly thought i found true love with my husband.  We have been together for 6 years and when we first got together you could look at us and tell we was in love.  Our marriage is falling apart.  I am beginning to wonder if we was truely in love or in love with the fact of being in love.  We both have issues with the other but I believe mine is bigger than his.  I know everybody always says that but mine issues with him involves the two kids we have.  First off my husband says I never have sex.  Which I do agree that I don't have sex with him like I should.  Also he says another thing that bothers him is that my house don't stay spotless.  I have two kids and I do EVERYTHING myself.  Nobody helps me and I NEVER get a break.  I never get a babysitter nor do I get help with the house.  We do not have enough space for all of our clothes so therefore I have no where to put them.  I have to just stack them in our room and it looks terrible.  Well in my opinion he should build me a closet.  Anyway my issue with him is that he lies to me all the time.  He has been lying to me for over a year now and I can't believe anything he says.  He also does drugs and I DO NOT agree with that and I think that will effect our kids one day.  Our kids doesn't know and if they EVER found out I would leave!  Let me say that my kids our my number 1!  He don't do enough drugs that you can tell he is high but I know.  I can't stand someone who does drugs and I don't know what to do.  I do love him but I don't know if I would be better off without him or better yet if my kids would be.  He says he has changed and stopped everything but I didn't.  What he don't understand is that I can't help but to feel the way i do.  No matter what our problems are they should never be drugs involved.  I can't understand where he is coming from because i am so against it.  I love my husband and he is my financial supporter and I am kinda stuck.  I just wish I knew something to do because I am emotionally broke down.  I don't know how much more I can take.  It is so hard to act like everything is okay in front of our kids and family.  I have got to figure something out before I go crazy.  It is so embarrasing that this is happening.  I can't believe that he has put us in this situation.  He is all about himself and nobody else.  This is just how I feel.  I feel like if he cared about me or his kids he would stop.  It's not like he can't because he has and then went right back.  I might be harsh but I really don't care how hard it is on him I think he should still think about his kids and quit.  I know im sounding harsh but this is where i am at this point.  When he stopped last time I was really supportive and we did start to have sex alot more but now he is saying we didn't and I don't know what I am talking about.  So what do you say to that?  I might be on the wrong board but I just need advice.