Over the years, time may change a lot of things, but one thing it has not changed is my love for a certain person. The last time I saw her was about 12 years ago at my fraternity brother’s wedding. We introduced him and his new bride back in college. I thought that across the many miles and the barriers of religion that things could never work between her and me. I was certain that day that I would never hold her again and it has haunted me ever since that summer afternoon.
I have found myself in many relationships, each one to fail because I only have love for that one person. I have even given marriage a try twice, both have failed. Although one divorce was due to infidelity on her part, but she never compared to my college love either. I did receive a beautiful daughter from that one. My first marriage became a disaster from the start; I was trying to fill a void in my life that to this day has not been filled. I even made the mistake of calling her by my sole mate’s name on the wedding night. That marriage ended not even a year later when she decided to try to get back with her children’s father.
This wonderful woman that I met back in college, who I consider as my sole mate and I keep in touch about several times a year. She has never been married and is still me most extraordinary lady that has ever been in my life. She has made a successful educator and coach in Lafayette, Louisiana. I have many times tried to get the courage to take a weekend and drive down there, but we are two different worlds. She is single with the whole world in front of her. I am divorced with a wonderful child, and stuck where I am because I cannot and will not leave my child. God gave her to me to protect and take care of. I just want this Lady back in my life. I have spoken with her about my feelings and they seem mutual.
I have not been happy since our relationship slipped through the cracks many years ago.
Any advice or comments will be very helpful.
