sorry, you're feeling down, if you lived closer to me I"d come visit you. Please, try and not stress about being alone, I know it's hard though. But, just fill your time up with a 'smile' and other than work, do something that really makes you happy...join a gym, that always made me feel so wonderful!! you say you don't have family close by? friends? try joining some kind of club or something, I mean perhaps one of those clubs that travels on those buses...you might met people. Try and not look for a 'guy', I mean look for g/f's!! The 'guy' thing, well that will come when you're not looking...that's what I believe...work on confidence, and keep active...even if you have to push yourself ok? YOU CAN DO IT!! but, you have to want to and try!! ok?? Other than work, look for things that you enjoy...I know you've heard this many times before...but, I can't help but think if you keep yourself really busy, you want have time to even think about be lonely...get out to places where you meet people...I've started traveling alone, and I love it!! You can't imagine how many people you meet on your travels...I work for schools, so I'm very lucky I have lots of time off!! I can't help but think if you get yourself out there and do the things you love, then everything falls into place...take up hobbies that involve people...see what the Sierra Club does?? You know when I went on my vacation alone, I met so many people...it was great!! and camping alone, when I had something I needed help on, I HAD TO ask...forcing me to get out there...you just can't imagine how many people (and guys too) you meet when you're alone...Like, when I was in this one place, I was flirted by this much younger guy than myself....hey, it felt good ok!! then, at the campground the men workers there, would talk to me...and you know what else, when you spend your days at a pool??? laying out getting a tan??? well, that's good for one's confidence I'll say...point is Kwinds, you need to just put yourself out there...be confident in yourself, knowing that you don't have to go out looking...they'll find you P.S. you can have my email address too...pratt0123@netzero if you want to email me...perhaps, I can help.....give you suggestions byee dee
