The more time you spend with him, the more you fall for him.... well i think you need to STOP. Otherwise you might end up a few years down the road with two kids and a husband whose in prison. Drugs are drugs. Weed may seem like no big deal, but you never know what may happen. How do you know cops won't try to arrest him? If there's any 'message' to be sent to drug dealers in your city, your boyfriend may just end up being the one that gest arrested. Also, If ever a batch is laced (by whoever your boyfriend's supplier is), someone may have an adverse reaction and get killed. In that your boyfriend will definitely be the one the cops turn to.
Generally speaking, most drug dealers are users themselves, which just isn't cool. Did you know that psychologically speaking people do get addicted to weed too? It's not heroin that's for sure but people always convince themselves Pot is 'nothing'...'no big deal'. But there's been studies about chemicals in the brain...(okay i won't get into this)...my point is that yes, pot is addictive but in a different way than hard core drugs are.
Now do you really want to date a man who is, (or who helps others to be) a junkie? Just think, your boyfriend could be the guy to help that 13 year old neighbour start his path to drug addiction.
I think that you should tell your boyfriend about your mixed feelings and ask him to stop. Emphasize how important it is to you. If he doesn't stop then he obviously doesn't care about you as much as you think he does. If he doesn't choose you over the drugs then I think you have your answer about whether or not you should stay together.
Also, I think you're trying to cling to this guy because you don't want to start dating all over again. I mean, it's only been a month right? How well could you know this guy? How do you know that there isn't more serious things he's not hiding from you?
Regardless what me or anyone here may think or say, You already know what you have to do. You're here, posting your feelings up on this board so you're obviously unsatisfied with what's going on. That should be a big enough clue that this man's not for you.
Dating is hard but do you really think that staying with this guy is worth it? I mean, after awhile the physical stuff dwindles and what will you be left with? A drug dealer...possible junkie...and who knows, ex-con? If you have any other doubts, think about this....if you ever consider having a family do you really think this guy is daddy-material? He'd be great taking your kids to the park...push 'em on the swing for a few minutes then go over to all the other kids in the area and sell them some weed...go back to pushing your kids on the swings. Heartwarming isn't it?
Yeah I may sound critical and it may even sound like i'm blowing things out of proportion but really, most drug dealers don't just stop with weed. Maybe your boyfriend only told you about that particular drug because he knew you'd freak if he said he sold E, coke, or other more hard core drugs.
Said it before and I'm saying it again. You don't know what he's not told you and you can't possibly know him well enough after just a month of dating. He could be so many things I can't list them all. Drug dealing is illegal (obviously), which means anyone who does this has no respect for the law....and that means that there may be other laws being ignored by them. It's simple logic here and i hope you see that.
Okay, there. I've said my piece and now I'll shut up.
